HELP

T.T

anyone would like to stop me from moving to hell...?? T.T

from getting deeper and deeper...??T.T

tried many ways

many times

but useless

someone please come n slap me to wake me up please

T.T

T.T

T.T

sick+missing

感冒+肚子痛
如果阿妈在这就好了，能"order"粥吃。。=p

鼻涕可以不要一直流了吗？？！！@.@
喷嚏可以停止了吗？？？！！！*.*

不舒服我还有闲情逸致edit照片。。=.=
原本是看回以前的照片。。
发现这张。。
突然灵感来了就edit xia..=p


























以为自己不再去想你

保持不被刺痛的距离

就算早已忘了我自己

却还想要知道你的消息

感动

筱柔：“如果有人在一张纸上写满爱我的理由，那真的很感动”

换一下：会不会有一天你给我你的部落格网址，里面写满的都是我？<3
那也会很感动=)






*请ignore，最近常常会突然出现一两句莫名其妙的话=p

free voucher

drug book-1516 pages

med-surg-1312 pages
costs me rm150

but!!

luckily i got voucher..=)

rm200 voucher..

if not,i dont think i wil buy med-surg lor...so expensive what..@.@

actually i dont wan to buy drug book,but d salesman dunwan give me refund,(med-surg cost rm110,i refuse to buy rm140 1 since its expensive=p)

so,he advice me buy mai drug book lor...

rm150 voucher is gone..=p

left rm50..

should use it to buy ha mik ??=p

一百分

眼泪带给你的压力太清晰

我真的不是故意

不是故意让自己变得不再像自己

为了你，拼命想拿一百分而努力

:')

=)

'forever' or 'for ever'...??

*不要轻易说出永远，因为有些白痴会当真*

*明明深深地爱着一个人，想要让他知道你爱他，却不肯让他知道你爱他*

*想要有个人安慰自己，有个人关心自己，但有人出现时，你却拒绝了*




我从来都不知道你要的是什么
就好像你也不知道这些的存在

wow~

好消息好消息~~~
刚刚三点去考试。。考到五点。。
2题essay..
写好第一题，刚刚好四点~~
哇~~
怎么我的time management变好了啊？？xDDD
*lac c face*

okay,tis is not d main point...
guess wat??
just now KT asked me is it tried insert Ryle's tube in ward..
the news ar...
spread so fast xia..xDDDD
hahahaha~~
spread from 2intan until 5U wor~~~
lan c si ar!!!XDDDDDDDDDDD
他讲现在出名的就是我了，第一天进ward,第一天就insert Ryle's tube..xDD
这个procedure又是这个sem刚学的沃~~~
哇咔咔咔卡！！！！
昨天休息时在harmony cafe,with ah Y,kak T dan hani..
遇到那天看我insert Ryle's tube 的讲师。。
她就跟他们讲：inilah kawan kamu yang insert Ryle's tube semalam..
人家paiseh啦。。=///=

大家都很羡慕地说~~~~
哇哈哈哈哈。。。。
没想到讲师竟然还有跟别人讲这件事·~
天啊~~
=///=

果然哦~~
做对事情，讲师会到处分享。。
做错事情也一定是。。

看来要好好努力不做错事，不然就玩完了咯~~
加油加油黄阿比~<3

问题

上个星期KT和阿Z来房间一起吃午餐加宵夜。。
后来阿Z先回了。。
聊着聊着。。。
他突然问：你有没有想过如果有一天你喜欢上XX，会怎么办？
我讲不知道。。

刚刚突然又想到这个问题。。
如果真的的话，我就不会怎样咯。。
难道要我去告白啊？？=.=
我没那么大的勇气。。=p
而且有很多种喜欢啊，可以是朋友的喜欢也可以是玩伴的喜欢。。
*很难分清楚下*>.<.
至少到目前为止都搞不清楚到底有喜欢谁。。@.@

holiday before practicum-day 3

went to cameron~~
waited for d bus driver for another half hour again!
fine~
dunwan let him spoiled my holiday mood~~
start our journey lu~~~
in first hour,everyone sleeping...
tired wat..
after an hour,started noisy liao...
but most of time si we (those who sit at d back 1) bising nia...=///=

bla bla bla~~
reched tanah rata..
rest for half hour i think,cox some of them wanna go to atm n toilet..
but another bus din folo us..
i xia ba ka eng,sit wit ah K lo..
cox dharsh very sunyi lo...
i too talkative...=////=
cant din talk for a longtime..:p
n ah K love to talk too..xDD
2 ge bo ji..:P


lunch wit 5indian frens~~~
i loved them~~
they r cute wat~~<3
after lunch,we were late...
so bus moved a round lo...
saw d bus passed by..
fas2 message ah Q n asked lo...
cox I SAW HIM IN D BUS N BAIBYE WITH ME!!! XD
but then of cox bus gt come lah..
e??
ah K changed seat wit erry pulak..
so i sit wit erry lo...
ah Q asked is it i send msg to him jx now..
weyy!lastime i ever text him to ask him bout assignment liao ho...
he checked..
just realized he saved it wrongly..
7477 pulok..xD
then erry asked my nombor lo...
then!!
ah K mc me..
ah S mc me..
ah F mc me..
weyyy...
too free liao ho...=p

he saw my small pillow koyak liao..
asked me jahit pulok...
weyyy..
im not a lady lah how to jahit wor...:p
he show me how jahit pulak..
masuk sini,keluar sana..xDDD
how serious ar his face...xDDD

reached another "jalan shopping"..
cox tat lorong is for us shopping de ma..
ah P bought rose..
wah~~
fresh la~~
n cheap...xDDD
guess wat?
i gt roses from XX...
9 roses lagi...
*every bungkus is 9 lah..xD*
LOL~~
first time..>.<.
how good if HE's d 1 who gv me rose.....
hmm...

then i bought jagung lor..
terus makan liao,not nid cook de...
n jambu apple...
son of the guava n apple...xDD
refer to d photo below lo..


3.30pm like tat balik liao...
dinner at somewhr..=p
ah P asked me help to get d hp no from 1 gal...
ngaidi...
malu lah,,,
then he asked anak tutor to get it,..
so pity ar tat little boy...xDDD

then 8something rest at somewhr i duno,but i noe is in kelantan area liao..=p
sit wit ah HF lor...
sleep jor...
b4 tat hard to fall aslp bcx i sit outside,not bside window li...
so scare jatuh pulak...=///=
n usually i slp wit a blanket covered my eyes,now dun hv..
so hard lo...
but after sit bside HF,terus slp jor..
cox i sit near wit d window..xDD


reached gate usm,i heard they said "yong buka mata.."
keep on repeating d sentence lagik...xDD
u noe?!
raining lah!!
dun hv umbrella lagik...
fine~~
basah lor~~
my rose n jagung basah too...>.<.



okay~~
that's all about my trip to perak~~
maybe u cant feel any happy feeling through these posts and photos..
but i'm sure that i'm happy and enjoyed this trip very very much...
more than what i can say...
if there's a chance to join another trip with all of them,i will join it without thinking..
because really too happy,excited,high and fun...
LOVE YOU ALL~~

holiday before practicum-day 2

went to TAMBUN~~
i used another bus..:p
when we reached there, ah D jerit : TAMBUN~
we said :yeah~
"Tambun"
"yeah"
"Tambun"
"yeah"
"tambun"
"yeah"
"tambun tambun"
"yeah yeah "
"tambun tambun tambun"
"yeah yeah yeah"
quite ngok xia lo..
n o,i think im d only gal jerit wit them..@.@
as u noe,other gals r very sopan santun 1..
not like me..
jerit sini,lompat sana..=p

bla bla bla~~~~~
swimming wor~~
weewit~~=p
si cutie challenged me pulak...>.<.
i noe of cox i kalah lah..
but play2 oso fun ma...
menang kalah not important pun..xDD
ok,START!
after few seconds~~
*pak*
langgar kepala si cutie..=///=
sorry~~:p
but o,i think its not my fault lah..
si he swim senget jor lah..
my skill so good,how come will senget lah...=p
ok lah..xtually my skil reli cacat la if compare to him..
he taught me to telan air liur if cant tahan nafas liao..
i tried lo..
reli can tahan lama sikit wor..xDD

we played here n there lo...
got hot spring somemore...
n a "small cave"like tat..
got warning sign board..
"cant stay more than 5 minutes inside thr.."
cox scare we pengsan bah..
45C bah if not mistaken..:p

d important 1 come liao..!!
u noe?!
shoba,darsh n me duduk atas pelampung lor...
si ah K swim nearer to our pelampung...
we talk lo..
darsh remind him never ever terbalikkan our pelampung..
cox b4 tat he oways terbalikkan pelampung geng dia..
then he said " saya kan baik,takkan buat macam tu"
while he is saying tat,he is on d way to terbalik our pelampung..>.<.
guess wat?
my head masuk dalam air dulu..=.=!!
almost lemas jor..=///=

his geng still continue terbalikkan pelampung2 kawan sendiri..
duno they played how manytimes..
*biiiiii*
guard gv warning liao ler...xDDD
then cant ply like tat liao lo...
*behli good jambuluk*xD

b4 we balik,we played pirate ship again..
THIRD time oledi!!!XD

after changed clothes,ah K said sorry to me pulak..=p
malu i...xDDDD


*night*
BBQ~~~
i......"cycling"...
wit a "junior bicycle" n PUNCIT 1!!!XD
tutor laguhed at me ler..=///=
weyyy....after "cycling" for 1 round at 庭院,sweat wor...
how tired la...
cycling atas rumput...dengan bicycle kecil dan puncit..xDDD

played games~~
what tiger de..
duno wat they called it..
n music chair...xDD
fun wat!!!
but i din play lah,i b penonton only..xDD
many of us din play..xDD
cox i think b penonton more happy..
laugh si wo...xDD
(refer to d photos that wil b upload by erry...in this week,he promised d..xDD)
i found tat he love to take photo ler...
n is a good photographer ler..xDD
but too bad,he don like to smile while taking photo...
y so cool lah..@.@
n,i reject to take photo wit him on little bicycle..
how regret i was...
if take it,sure very very funny...xDDDD



its hard for me to type out everything n my feelings..
i just want to say that, ITS REALLY REALLY REALLY FUN~
LOVE THOSE MOMENTS~~<3
sweet memories for us..<3

*but i didnt take photos..just few nia..
actually still got lah,but i think upload these enuff liao..
others not important..=p

holiday before practicum-day 1

qiang qiang~~
wednesday night~~
start my journey to PERAK~~~~~
excited~~~xDDD
well~~
waiting for our bus from 8.30pm until 9+pm...
this pakcik ar...
大牌莫。。
十点开始启程咯~~~
五点半这样到ipoh~~
我们去masjid洗刷咯。。
他们要sembahyang mah..
到七点多就去breakfast lo...
roti canai yang tak sedap...=p
limau ice yang sangat manis...=p
nvm,its ok..
then 8.45am likt tat we went to TANJUNG RAMBUTAN~~
err,hospital bahagia..
or we called it as hospital psychiatric...xDD
walao~~
reli bahagia xia o..
very very very big lah!!!!!
got muzium somemore...
gosh~~~
we used bus USM to visit the wards...
got ward kebun jugak...
waseh~~
visit to bengkel bekerja..
they make keychains and something i duno how to name it de thingy..=p
got 1 chinese asked: nei giu meh meng ar?
i said:zi yong..xDD
guess what she said after i ans her???!!!
she said:ngo hou qi bin dou ging go nei gam..
hell yea~~=p
i translate to my frens lor...
they said :horrr yong...u ever admit to here ek??
weyyy...so bad ar...xDD
we visit2 until 1+pm lor..
then lunch n go to homestay lor...
bla bla bla~~
8pm go jusco lor..
but everyone came late,especially bus driver..
so,we reached at jusco around 9pm..@.@
food court cloased..=.=
eat kfc lor...=(
i prefer kfc kubang kerian..=p
wait n wait...eat ar eat...
until 10pm liao..=.=!!
planned to cinema n watch ghost movie..
but!!!
d only ghost movie only play at 11pm..=.=!!
tak sempat la!!!
12 we hav to bek lou..=(
so we go cari baju cny for ah L..
after that,played bowling!!!!
gosh!!!
very excited moh...xDDDDD
jump here n thr..=///=
guess wat,i made STRIKE moh..xDDDD
wakakakaka~~
almost all of us were LEPAK-ing at bowling thr..
cox other shop closed oledi...=p

all of them sooooo sporting wat...xD
整个场面都被hold住了。。。xDDD
几high下大家。。
后来我还跑去另一边跟他们打乒乓。。=p
跑来跑去。。=p
后来就脸红红的了啦。。
跑来跑去和太兴奋的结果。。xDD

走路回去bus时，学阿t他们玩walkie talkie..xD
*krr krr* .....*krr krr*
我是03..xDDD

he : *krr krr* 03 03*krr krr*
me: *krr krr* 03 over *krr krr*
he : *krr krr* ..... *krr krr*

got many lah...
very funny d talks xia...
haiyo...

jin ngok jiu shi liao lah..,
n my seat at d back thr..
played wit d geng ah E..=p
im so man wat..=///=
loved to ply with them,funny n cute..XDD

well~~
my first day holiday ended up with cutie touch my hair when pass by n wan to get down from bus..<3
n a message...
d sender is d 1 i never expect..<3
too sweet~~=)

*sometimes, a simple message at a right time can melt a heart*


somehow i loved someone touch my hair...
like lastime at murni,pujuk2 ah T join lawatan..
*merajuk*=///=
she keep on touching my hair..
feel like very cute lor..
i mean the action lah..xDD



to be continued........

good starting

guess what?

today i woke up at 6.50am,duno y suddenly TERKEJUT!!!

thought i was late..

cox usually shift pagi start at 7am ma...thats y i terkejut lo..

but then today is office hour..start at 8am..=.=!!

dien bo!!!xD

okay fine..thats not what i wan to mention in tis post..

what i want to say is,today i did feeding n insert Ryle's tube wor~~

n o,tutor praised me in front of coursemates n juniors~~~

paiseh moh~~=///=

feeding stil ok la..

RYLE's TUBE ar~~

learnt it this sem..

n first day of practicum i got chance n can perform it~~~

while i performed it,tutor stand beside and got 5 or 6 juniors..

TENSION wat!!!!! >.<.

tutor said she satisfied with my performance~~XDDDD

she said have to communicate wit patient while doing procedure although the patient is semiconscious...=p

n o!!!

i forgot to take plaster..=///=

luckily tutor didnt scold..

happy happy~~~

first day practicum~~~

hopefully can make it better for the coming 5weeks..xDD

today special case,shift until 1pm..

but i bek at 1.40pm..>.<.

cox stil gt feeding..

luckily our clas at 2.30pm..=)

after clas,went to take voucher..=)

long queue weyyy....

queue behind ah E..

TERnampak his wallet got another card..

so ge bo mah ask lo..=p

he showed me lo...

english center punya student card..

waseh...primary 5 li pic very cute ar!!!!!xDDDD

wait for 1hour jor..@.@

with uniform again..#.#

asked ah E gt fetch anyppl mah...

lazy walk jauh jauh lah...=///=

hiak hiak hiak~~

thanks God~~

he didnt fetch anybody..xDD

of cox wan tumpang xia lah..xDD

lalu blok C,saw our clas li couple dating ther..xDD

they horrr pulak...

malu i...xDD

i'm staying

hair

A woman’s emotions are more closely linked to her hair than to any other part of her.

good news..??

alright..

decided to visit to perak...

after called my dear ahmek...xDDD

dono..

maybe just need someone to support my decision,i think...

as u noe,i dont understand myself well.....>.<.

hmm...

its a good news for myself lah...=)

at least dun hav to frust in making a decision..

thanks God~~<3

and today before exam,ah T said WL gv her a tuner,for me..

touching wey...=p

ok lah,actually just a small matter lah..

but,as u noe,im weird n nerd human..

will feel touching easily...

although what u did just a very very very simple thingy..

really lah...

didnt expect what..

and he just touched my guitar once..

err,,quite....surprised..??

hihihi..

anyway,thanks..=)

but o,wondering how to return it to him later..??

n when return it to him..??

*never give any surprise

cox its touching*

cant stand with the surprise n touching.

visit to perak...??

again..

talk about our visit..

just now tutor asked who wanna join but at last quit....

well...

raised up my hand..

there's 77 ppl,but only 56 going..

so tutor wan us speak out our problem...

"money??"

"yes!!!!"

see..???

guess what?

she asked us,"if someone can borrow money to u,will u go..??"

hell yea~~(learn from troll guyxP)

want borrow money to enjoy...??>.<.

ok fine..

let's list out the advantages and disadvantages of this visit..

advantages:

-play at The lost world of tambun (never went before)

-visit to hospital psychiatric

-enjoy with coursemates (once in life,as we never outing together,final year wont have chance to outing like this)

-step on Perak area ( err,this 1 just simply add in nia,ignore itxD)

-visit to cameron too (err,this 1 oso simply add in nia,i went cameron b4,so going to cameron or not its ok for me)

disadvantage:

MONEY!!!!

seems like there's only A disadvantage that i found..

what the........

so how...??

and just now tutor said manythings in class...

really TERASA lah...>.<.

begged us to join....>.<.

and coursemates said dont action2 wan tutor merayu baru nak pergi...

no lah..

not action2 lah..

just really frust lah..

how good if i skipped the class,wont hear the speech...>.<.

someone please tell me what should i do..=(

join or not..

start the journey on this wednesday night..

thursday visit to hospital psychia..

friday going to tambun..

saturday morning go to cameron and come back to campus on night..

pay rm100 for bus fee and ticket for tambun..

and just now search tambun..

found that its almost same with sunway lagoon..(actually it is under sunway too..)

just different place..

went to sunway lagoon wit cy n ah E b4..

should i ....??

actually its quite cheap liao...

but...

how how how...????

i need someone to tell me what should i do.......=(

as u know,i cant make my own decision..

until now...;(

porridge

早餐~~

鲍鱼味粥沃~~

亲自下厨勒。。xDD

来大娘我教教大家如何煮鲍鱼味粥吧。。。

首先~~~~

滚水~~~

然后~~~

10

9

8

7

6

5

4

3

2

1

倒进这包先进的东西进锅里就好了~~

大功告成！！xDDDDD

发现真的越来越欠打了。。

都是那家伙每次叫我欠打点，看！！

越来越欠打了。。>.<.

刚刚才发现到一件很重要的事！！！

就是！！

我。。。竟然忘了正月二号这么。。。。重要的日子！！！T.T

太不应该了

不是故意

我以为恶梦不会一直缠着我
我以为头痛闭上眼就痊愈了
我只听你爱听的歌
我只做你的朋友
我变得沉默
伤心也不愿开口
我变了好多
是否更靠近你呢
等一个固执的如果
如果你懂我为什么就够了
你别担心我不怕一个人站在雨里
除了你我找不到能快乐的意义
眼泪带给你的压力太清晰
我真的不是故意
不是故意让自己变得不再像自己
为了你拼命想拿一百分而努力
你却离我越来越远的距离
直到我失去你
真的不是故意

男朋友。。？？

最近都一直叫我找男朋友。。@.@
老二和阿T阿Y。。
那两只还讲：其实你很多选择啦，你哥哥朋友那么多。。@.@
心想：人家都不选我我要选个头啊。。=p
而且，重点是：他们要不就未来医生，要不就未来牙医。。
我只是小小的密惜仔。。*.*

今天阿Y直接把WL的照片发给我。。@.@
一开始不要讲是什么，只叫我accept..
结果一看是他照片。。@.@
还讲要撮合我跟他。。@.@


而且，还没找到能受得了我脾气的。。
as u know,i failed in my anger management..=)


有了男朋友，我的生活中心点就会变成他，不想再忽略家人朋友了。。。。
有了男朋友，就会很在意如果他跟哪个女生太好，我嫉妒心超强的。。。。
有了男朋友，又会担心他哪一天又喜欢上别人不要我，我受不了这个打击。。。。
有了男朋友，又担心讯息到没话题聊而变到很显，再而慢慢对我失去感觉。。。。
有了男朋友，就会担心有其他女生喜欢他而来搞三搞四，我一直都是输的那个。。。。
有了男朋友，万一不久分手了，只会让我更emo而已，哭的死去活来永远不会是他。。。。
有了男朋友，分手了，我还要用上N年来忘记他，累人累己的事不想再重复。。。。

有了男朋友，坏处就有这么多。。
我还是做好现在该做的事就好了。。
至少到目前为止，还是保持着现在的生活就好。。
等我有办法克服自己以上的问题后再打算。。
以后的事以后再打算。。=)

=)

我以为

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容就能解脱
我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
专情陪在你左右弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生

我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心已不在你身上
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
我以为我的温柔能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
专情陪在你左右你不怕一切的错
也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁
我以为我够坚强却一天天的失望
少给我一点希望希望就不是奢望
我以为我的温柔能给你整个宇宙
我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口
专情陪在你左右弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真以为奇迹会发生
他让你红了眼眶你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好你要留在谁的身旁
我以为我够坚强却输的那么绝望
少给我一点希望希望就不是奢望



有时候，总是要等到你下线了，才甘心下线
真的只是有时候<3

pingpong

来这边这么久了第二次玩乒乓球。。@.@
第一次是昨天跟阿妹。。=p
哇~~
已经很多年没玩了咯~~~
skill ar~~
ma ma dei lor..=///=

还流汗。。=.=
不错好玩下。。
跟coursemates玩。。
约好常常一起玩。。xDD


有时候，生活其实可以很enjoy的，就看你懂不懂得去enjoy罢了..=)

计算着为你留下了多少眼泪 　　
就代表又对我的心撒了多少谎 　　
但每次我都选择
选择相信 　　
相信你是爱我的 　　
倔强的以为我真的能改变你 　　
看你装无辜的眼神
我很窒息 　　
难道你没有看见
看见我对你的好 　　
还是你忘了那些数不清的爱情轨迹 　　
你说我傻
傻在爱上只懂爱自己的人 　　
我说你傻
傻在爱他
你的眼睛骗不了人 　　
我们都傻
傻在为一段没有未来的爱情付出 　　
还在期待会有奇迹出现 　　
你说我傻
傻在爱上没有感情的分身 　　
我说你傻
傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身 　　
我们都傻
傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真 　　
还在期待会有奇迹出现 　　

谁没有为爱做过傻事 　　
只是问心无愧
讽刺也无所谓 　　
我说我傻
傻在爱上没有感情的分身 　　
你说你傻
傻在爱他就固执的奋不顾身 　　
我们都傻
傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿意放弃天真 　　
还在期待会有奇迹出现

steambot+ BBQ 3days

*friday morning*
fetch ah mek..then jalan2..
bought bbq set..xDD
of cox...must try it lor..=p
we try it at night..and steambot...
ahliang,ahmek,ahxin,ah V,ah J,cy,ah E,sy n tiff..
ahxin made "sao mai"..
ahliang cook chicken soup..
full weyyy...
*burpppp*


*saturday-night*
count down at uncle David's house..xDD
again~~
steambot and bbq..

*sunday-night*
steambot and bbq again since we left over many fish balls hot dog vege....
OMG~~
FULLLLLLL~~~
guess what,we went out to buy ticket for ahmek..
saw durian stalls..
balik campus fetch ah V,ah J,cy and wl..xDD
then go durian stall and eat..xDD
durians as supper..??XDD
around 10.30pm i think,reached campus..
continued our bbq and steambot..>.<.=p
until 1am..
fine..
then,skipped the class..=p
supposed should go to class at 8am,but,skipped it lor..
11.30am have another class pulak..
go for second class lor..
afternoon..??
FREE!!!!!XD
KFC as dinner pulak...=.=
FAT FAT faT!!!

again,i failed in keep fit..
failed how many times already..
too bad...>.<.