smile

lasnite lepak-ing at LCCT..
"assess" the environment at airport..:p
suddenly TERrealized..:p
no matter what happens,our earth wont stop moving,n others still busy with their own works,maybe they will remember what happen today,but after a period of time,nobody wil remember about tat anymore..
earth-still moving
humans-still working
you?
wat for u mad for the same reason,when nobody care about tat?
wat for u keep worrying for the same problem?
just smile.
n tell urself,its okay..=)
*sometimes its hard lah,but just try lor*

relax lah~~=)

NO completely removed

-4pints of blood transfused-
-fever, 39 degree celsius-
-hospitalized acquired pneumonia-
-oxygen 3L via nasal prong-
-complaint of backache-
-on morphine for 3days-


mom's tumor wasnt completely removed
n doctor said better chemo in 2weeks
mom even cant walk properly now
has to do chemo?
i dont think mom can cope it
but
chemo is the best for her
but then bro said scare of those side effects
such as,renal failure


chemo at kuching?
or HUSM?
argued for a long time too
at last decided to do it at HUSM
if at kuching
dad tired too
mayb november wil go over ther


please
dont give us any bad news
i do believe everything will b okay
Mom,be strong.<3
We want you to attend our convos,our weddings,everything in our future.=)
u paid ur 20++years for us,its not worth if u cant attend everything in our future.
after we grad,everyone has at least rm2000 income every month.
n our future doctor at least rm4500.
its time for u n dad to say "money money lai".=)
so,please be strong..
dont give up..<3
n your youngest naughtiest daughter still not yet marry,dunwan c ur caring nice good handsome son-in-law liao?=p
jia u~<3
like wat i always said,
"hmm sai geng,ahbi hai dai teng~"
dun worry,tistime wont blackout liao..^^

album-taken in toiletss

alright tats wat i did everyday..

routine...xDD 

always facing to the mirror..

bcox my hand not very long,n i think my face look quite big if zi pai like tat..

so...

so.....use mirror better lah..xDD

ngok!

n!!

everytime take photo,i can smile happily...

LOL~~

relax lah...xDDDD

like wat little junior asked " y everytime i saw u u always smile ar,like no worry 1,so happy go lucky.."

reli meh??

i oways smile??@.@

relax lah~~xDD

arrrggghhh

i wan bbq with them lah
at resort lagi
sure fun
arrrgggghhhhh!!!!
i wanna go back now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T

fill in the blank =)

MOOD for today

-when there is a NO,from him-

okay emo for whole night longT.T

altho noe wont make any changes even i ask to change
but stil try to ask
cox never try never noe mah
well
somehow
quite disappointed when been "rejected"
even tho had expected this
but then
still
hmm
the feeling of disappointed
more than the expected
unexpected feeling
T.T

n i felt myself quite annoying n troublesomeT.T
sorry


anyway
thanks for trying to cheer me up early in the morning.=)
really early in the morning nih=)
by telling some actually quite funny joke lah.
but sorry
cox really quite sad
sad mood more than happy mood

anyway
thanks a lot too.<3

overnight

okay finally its time for me to update my blog..=)
for today.


okay i was emo just now..
sad
frustrated
cried for few secondT.T
cox i cant join my batch bbq on this coming saturday>.<.
i wanna join
as tis is our 1st hang out for bbq
yes lastime ever bbq at perak too
but it wasnt same
lastime wit lecturers
but this time
all students
n my besties going too
i cant imagine how fun it will be
i noe it must be very very very fun
but unfortunately i cant join
wanna save all of our memories
wanna create more n more memory between our batch
just like interyear game
jason n liang asked to go to kl on thurday night,then walk around at kl
n jason will back to kelantan on saturday night while liang n i go to kuching
i wanna go to kl,cox i guess mayb going to sunway lagoon
but then i dunwan to go too bcox tatday was my LAST interyear game that i can join
ever frustrated for few days too
at last decided to choose interyear game as i wan to enjoy with them
n yes,i enjoyed very very much
but then i failed to enjoy wit them for our 1st hang out
failed to create more memory wit them
yes nex sem can or may have another 1 too
but,duno
if can,i wan join all of our batch activity
try my best dun miss it
but tistime i cant join

how good if im rich n can book a new ticket for flight on friday
then can join on saturday.T.T

emo to the max
T.T

-warm-

everyone,thanks a lot..<3<3

thank to God again..
for my broadband..
as it wasnt function since 1 week ago..so only can use hp to online..=)
thank to God,someone cal me n ask me hav a cal to maxis centre..
n then, problem solved.=)

3rd operation

15/10/2012

okay admitted to ward around 8.15am lor..
n last time doctor said wil operate at tengah hari..
ok lor..
mom asked dad bring us go eat breakfast lor..=p
so dad,kakak n i eat 1st lor..
liang later..xDD
future doctor has to practice to tahan lapar..xD

around 9am liang called dad n said wil operate soon..@.@
so we bek to ward lor..thanks God during tatime we hd our breakfasr oledi..xDD

then 9.30am like tat send to OT..


-around 2pm-
-OPERATION SUCCESSED-
praise to the Lord..<3<3
He is mighty to save..<3

and there was another thingy made me totally WARMMMM by them~~~
my besties...
my coursemates...
sent msg to 3 of them..
their replies were so........................
arrrgghhh~~~made me wanna cry lah...
cry due to too happy lah bengong...=p
really too touching u noe....<3<3<3
"lega~hugs from everyone in lab~congrate dun worry too much~"
n i posted on group dip nursing batch 4..our group..
posted about this good news..
their replies....
made me felt like wanna find ultraman to bring me back to usm immediately n hug them tightly ..<3<3<3<3
seriously thank to God for giving me such good course matesssssssssssssssss...<3<3<3
no wonder when i saw our batch photo lastime,i was like wahhhhh i loved them...<3<3<3
thanks for everything,my besties , my dear course mates...
thanks for all of your support..<3<3<3
without their support,i bet i cant handle all of tis..i bet my eyes going blind due to keep on crying..
but,bcox of them,bcox they keep on giving me support, i din cry as frequently as before this..=p
bcox of them,i noe im not alone,i gt them with me..
although they are my course mates,but, they arent JUST my course mates..<3<3
they meant a lot to me..<3


you'll see everything and know everybody well when you're in trouble.=)

once again,
THANKS EVERYONE...<3<3<3

continued from "-enjoyed-"

alright~~
interyear game~~
after explorace.saw others were playing "semakin jauh semakin sayang"..
okay good name lah..xDD
i see lor..
but then seems like they nid player..xDD
so i gebo gebo said i wan join lor..xDD
okay relax lah~
i joined..@.@
but then actually tatime i duno wats the game..just simply join in..=.=
n then when i stand ther,keep on asking others bout how to play..xDD
okay the game was 2 people stand face to face and then 1ppl throw a balloon(filled wit water) to another player,n then the 1 who receieved the balloon has to 1 step backward,n throw it back to the sender..
n repeat the same thing,keep on moving backward if can catch the balloon..
okay i cant catch it before she reach the half way..sorry..>.<.
then she cant catch it too,i think bcox im too GANAS..so she cant catch it..sorry boss..@.@
only 2chances..@.@

then just tengok2 lor..:p
aiyaaa 3rd year 1st prize lagi~~<3<3
altho not my group,but stil hapi lah..xDD
my coursemate nih..xDD
then jalan2 sini n sana lor..

ah T n ah Y ask to sit at stadium ther lo..at least gt seats for us instead of standing..
deal~~
take a cup of cold drink..n walk to ther..=p
saw ah Z them were playing game in the middle of the field...
so, as u noe,my hobby is gebo2..xDD
so ask ah T n ah Y go n support them at ther lor..
but then ah T refused,so only ah Y n i go lor..xDD
start raining when we reach ther..
@.@
okay.....................
duduk..............
u noe,both of us just quite coolllll~~~~
n romantic lah..xDD
others were busy to get an umbrella or trying to get out from rain..
but then we were steady~~~~
'feel the rain'~~
fuiyooo~~~XDD

n it getting heavier..@.@
relax lah~~~~=p
okay good~~ah Z them won the game~~pheewwiiittt~~XDD



-still raining-
saw ah D n some of the girls stood under the rain n support OUR BOYS ply futsal..
our boy=our male coursemates okay..
looked not bad..
so ajak ah Y again lor..
okay im bad lah,always ajak ah Y do something weird..=p


well~~
we were shouting under the rain..
even guys just stand under the tent..
but then these gals under the rain pulak..
reli too excited nih..xDD


okay i duno we stand ther for how long..
but i realized it getting funER when someone start pouring water onto others..xDD
okay good~~~
n we started addicted to it after few minutes.xDD
poured water on each other..
its fun......
to the max!!!
under the rain..xDD
good~~<3
n ah V poured water from my back..
i think he poured from my hair lah..
cox water flow into my Tshirt n i was like ohnooooooooooooooooooo

ITS COLD you know!!!XDD
if just pour to tshirt,stil okay..duno y..
okay shaking for few seconds..=p
then continue ply wit it..xDD
seriously,those who ply under the rain,all were 3rd year SENIORS~~
relax lah~~
seniors oso human mah..xDDD


-time for prizes-xD
okay i realized i lost my favourite earring !!!
green leaf 1..>.<.
made me emo..>.<.
i loved it lah..
n it matched wit my interyear tee..green too..>.<.
shitttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!=(
but wat to do,lost oledi..@.@


okay we decided to get our hamper by 5 of us togeter..
but then 2guys disagreed wit tat..=(
so cancelled lor..
n 3 of us dunwan get it alone..>.<.
but then at last i get it alone when announced 2nd prize cox dunwan other "not related" ppl get it for us..=p
at least wan get it by anyone of the 5members mah..xDD
(okay ah Z told me "Something" happened when i get my hamper..i noe bout tat in evening when lepak to her room.. the story was : ah H rushing2 go in front to capture photo when im on my way to get hamper..n then some of them 'kacau2' lor..ask him y rushing2,wan take whose pic..n another some of them said oh yong..)
okay i din realized bout tat at all...cox i fully paid my attention on the hamper..=p
aiyaaa relax lah~~
i think if ah T or ahY going to get the hamper,he wil rushing2 go n capture too..
OUR hamper nih~~~xDD
just pity him lor oways kacau2 by others cox of me..@.@
sorry boss..>.<.



-interyear game 2012 officially finished-
okay headache after bath..@.@
lesson of the day : do not play under the rain.
no matter mom always said donot ply under the rain,wil get sick..
okay i shud listen to mom..=p
n this lesson of the day remind me of another thingy..
few years ago mom oso ever said " donot couple when u r young".
okay lastly i noe y..@.@
wil get hurt if couple earlier..>.<.
n very obviously ............................
okay enough!!!

conclusion is , mom's words always right~<3

-enjoyed-

first of all,i would like to say "thanks God.."
for listening to my prayers my problems, and settled all of it..<3
and of cox, i want to say thank u  to all of my course mates too..<3

-head of nursing course verbally allowed to minta cuti-
-all of my lecturers signed my letter-
-settled everything about surat cuti-
-found time for me to present-
-all of my course mates willing to spend their break time to listen to my group presentation-
-many of them asking about mom,send regards-(seriously n honestly,i felt warm when they did it,because some of them,i seldom talk with them.but then they still caring.thanks.<3)
-spent my thursday and friday happily before going back-
-fully enjoyed interyear game-


okay..
frustrated for few days about my surat cuti..
since puan rejected the letter by prof usm,she asked for latest 1 from doctor kuching..
how to get it wor...=(
but thanks God at last everything settled..=)

another puan asked to present 1st before going back..
seriously,felt so sorry to all my group members..>.<.
bcox we all gt another presentation on thursday,but then since i hav to present 1st,so they have to rush for 2 presentation in 1night..>.<,
sorry..
and they keep on saying nvm nvm when i appologized ..
made me felt like.....
aduiii...menyusahkan mereka nia..>.<.
really sorry..and thanks many many many many..for willing to present on thursday..=)

-thursday-
-lab-
TERingat my surat cuti when i stepped in the lab..@.@
IT STILL ON MY TABLE!!
damn........
hav to present during time break,take around half hour,hav to go to nurani  n bek to ppsk in half hour??
im not ultraman..not mario lah..=(
surely cant bek in time..@.@
so wan to boro motor from boys lor..
ah N bhind me..
so asked him 1st lor..
but then his motor is hand gear punya..@.@
even kaki punya pun not very pro liao,how to use hand gear lah..@.@
thanks God again cox ah H beside him..
so asked oso lor..
car..going bek to nurani too..
ahaa~~
can tumpang2..=p

thanks God once again for our class finished at 9am,after presentation n everything,around 10am only..n class start on 11am..=)

-okay took my paper-
-he done his work-
asked wan send me to wher..
okay i wondered too,where shud i go at tat time..@.@
alang2 mah..
10.30am like tat..
n he is going to eat at cafe near wit golf court ther,since his geng boycott murni cafe..xD
so bad..=p
n i wonder can i go with him..bcox if i go murni cafe,i hav to eat alone ther wor..>.<.
NO~~!!
but if i go with him,im the only girl ther..weird..@.@
so i decided to go to murni cafe lor..who noes mayb wil meet ah T them ler~~no FOREVER ALONE de face liao..xDD
but then ah H said he acc me to eat at murni lor..
ahaa~~
good2..^^

saw ah N,ah HF n ah I..
the moment i saw them ther,i was like ohno~~~
sure gek liao..salah faham liao..=p
okay like wat i expect,gek lor..
relax lah~~xD

saw ah T at cafe too..xDDD
but then no sit with her lo..
since i put my beg near at "the geng"'s table oledi..xD
n ah H said he acc me,if i go n sit with ah T,hmmm...felt sory pulak..@.@
aduii..reli hidup susah nih..=p
ok lah at last i sit with them lor..xD


-presentation for puan J at dkb-
after my group,we all hav to stand ther n puan wil gv comment lor..
tat satay ar...>.<.
everytime i look at her,cant stop laughing..
but!!
u noe,puan still giving comment, cant laugh..>.<.
THE MOMENT,u r not allow to laugh..
tahan lah...
almost pengsan..xDDD


seriously his body shampoo just too strong smell..=p
sit bside him can smell it oledi..=p
not bad ya tis body shampoo,made people smells good..=p
i wonder y i used body shampoo too but cant smell good like him..@.@
n,"body shampoo" reminds me of HIM..=.=!!
the one ever meant everything to me lol
used body shampoo wit strong smell one lol
okay enough!



-evening-
schedule show 4.30pm wil start the opening ceremony..
i go wit satay n ah TR..reached ther around 5.30pm..
but haven start yet..xD

-senamrobik-
-sesi ambil gambar-xDD
then b supporter lor..xDD
okay i jerit2 like crazy...xDD
supporter mah...
must jerit2 okay..xDD
n the funny moment was the conversation between supporters..xDD
i saw ah L n ah F played futsal..so i jerit their name lah..xDD
L~~L~~L~~xDD
then someone bside me said "wahh 2 nerd main futsal"
wahahahahaha...reli funny lah..xDD
wait,i x mean tat i agreed the statement ya..
just , felt funny lah..xDDDDD

n took some AWESOME photo..like it like it!!!XDD
nextime wan take wit my future bf lah..xDD


-friday-
too excited!!!!XD
after warming up, EXPLORACE~~!!
ahaaa~~~
excited to the max...xDDD
thanks God~~ah H bring a small bottle of water..xDD
if not,we r going to pengsan at somewher..

1st station : everybody must eat 3leafs with budu(??)
at first i was excited bcox nvr try mah..
but then the moment i put it into my mouth..
i was like ......................... werrrkkkkkkk!!
luckily gt water..if not..cant imagine wat shud i do...xDD

2nd station : BRING belut to another baldi..with palm!!! everybody must..>.<.
i was like ...................shittttttttt when i saw the baldi with belut ther..@.@
must hav a skin contact wit the belut..@.@
okay fine..
fight for first mah..xDD
hmm...belut not as scary as i thought lor..xDD

3rd station : anyaman..
wit no scissors no ruler..@.@
but thanks to the 1 who created HANDPHONE..
we used handphone as ruler..:p

4th station : take a sweet from a plate fulled with flour..by mouth..
relax lah~~:p lasyear played tis too..XD
just dislike my mouth fulled wit flour..
n my tshirt too..@.@

5th station : filled in the baldi until the ping pong ball get out from it..
not bad~~xD

6th station : okay we started blurred before we get tis station(if not mistaken)=p
we hav to run from masjid to tempat bayar yuran..ohno~~
use book clips to "build" a small camp..xDD
okay thanks to my teammates..they r just too pro~~xDD
awesome~~
without them i bet i cant pass tis station..<3

7th station : pick out black pepper from beras-beras sekalian..xDD
okay good~!!
ah H shaked the plate n we picked lor..XDD
good idea~~
yes!!tis station!!
TOTALLY WRONG!!!!!
gv us a clue..
but then the clue was for that station!! 
okay fine!!


8th station : find 5sen from a tin fulled with soil..xD
not bad too~~xDD


after tis station,we runnnnnn to the final station~~
to show them we completed our game oledi mah..xDD
saw the paper was blank..
so i YEAH~~~~~
but then the junior there said we r 2nd..@.@
rupa2nya she din write it down for the 1st prize winners..@.@
okay lah~~
2nd not bad what~~
worth for us to runnnnn here n ther..xDD


wait,wanna sleep liao..
to be continue..=p

tomolo mama going to hav an operation..
hope everygthing goes smoothly..=)
Lord,please bless mama..
and gv strength to all of us.

NOTHING

2 of my frens having sore throat this week..
n i sent out 2 types of "medicine for sore throat" to them..=p

yesterday talked wit mom..
told her bout tis..
she said " u have to care ur fren,always..like ur bro.."
hmm.. then i realized i never care bout others..
i only care myself.. until now,almost 20..
stil x care bout others..
for example, planned go johor buy a birthday gift for him,but then directly 4gt bout it when i reached johor..
only remembered bout tat when im on the way to kelantan..=.=
wongahbi can NO CARE OTHERS until like tat..@.@
well,i bet there is no CARING in my dictionary
lol

sent them medicine for sore throat,bcox i was facing the same problem for almost 2weeks..@.@
so i noe their feeling
so i bought n sent to them
after talked wit mom, then just i noe my actions called "CARING"
=)
okay good,finally i noe how to care others..=)



-yesterday-
duno y..
moody..
so went to cycling alone..
turn on the volume to the max
tried to cheer up
not bad:
the feeling of cycling alone n listen to the music


-today-
another moody day too..>.<.


put on headphone n turn to the max
i guess tis is the only way to GET OUT FROM MOODY
n oso cycling

MOODY!!
PLEASE AWAY FROM ME!!!!

=)

Goodnight texts.=)
the MOST important thing is, telling her how much you love her..<3
ALWAYS !! XDD

怎样去爱你的男人，看完你会沉默的

年轻时，我们不懂爱。我们以为不许他抽烟，是为了不让他得肺癌；不许他喝酒，是为了保护他的肝；不许他看通宵，不许他上网，是为了保证他的睡眠；不许他和朋友打牌、上馆子，是为了不让他荒废事业，一事无成。

爱他，我们就要给他一定的空间。我们不能因为爱，就剥夺了他的爱好和自由。男人抽烟喝酒，就像女人逛街穿衣一样，那是一种由衷的快乐。没有了它，男人就少了太多的快乐。所以，如果不是嗜烟酗酒，如果不至于影响健康，那么，抽烟的时候帮他点火，喝酒的时候陪他来两杯吧！也许你会发现，他的快乐其实就是你的快乐。

男人喜欢什么，陪他就好了，窝在他的怀里，看他笑，看他狂，看他丧气，你只要陪着他就好。不要抱怨，也许当时他把你忘了，以至于你睡着了，他都不知道，但是，当他忙完时，他一定会温柔地抱起你。

男人爱上网，你就让他上吧，有些时候，男人可以在网中找到成就感，找到英雄感，人总要有点精神寄托的。男人当然更是少不了朋友的，只要他不是夜夜笙萧，偶尔和朋友聚聚，你该为他高兴。一个有朋友的人，他才不会孤独，不会偏执。不要嫉妒他的朋友，不要说你没有他的朋友重要，一个人的一生中，除了爱情，亲情，他还需要友情的。

拥有时，我们不懂爱，易把亲近当疏远。

我们会发现，我们爱的那个男人对谁都好。他在车上可以和陌生人亲切的交谈；他看见有老人会热心地让座；他在路上跟每一个熟悉的人打招呼；在外面他似乎事事周全，可是，唯有对我们，他是那样的容易忽略。他会忘了你的生日，他会忘了陪你逛街，甚至放假后，他倒头就睡，他竟然都不陪你说话。

你很疑惑，为什么，为什么这个男人他对谁都好，唯独对我毫不重视？他陪朋友可以聊到深夜，为什么面对我竟无话可说，为什么让他陪我看电视，他就说累了要睡觉？

亲爱的，千万不要这样想，他对谁都好，对谁都周全，那是因为他和他们有距离。男人是很虚荣的，他要面子，他也要应酬。而你，你是他的爱人，在他眼里，你就是自己人，他无须在你面前活得那样累。

所以，你要明白一点，男人对你忽略，其实，正是把你当作自己一样的看待。所以，不要抱怨他忽略你，记住，只要他能在和别人亲切交谈的时候紧握着你的手，在晚上睡觉的时候紧抱着你的身躯，那么，你就无须自己折磨自己。你要相信，他爱你就像爱自己。

我们爱他，真的，这种爱甚至可以深入骨髓。我们以为世界上只有这个男人最好，我们以为我们爱的男人，别的女人也一定喜欢。于是，我们把他含在口里怕化了，捧在手里怕碎了。我们不知道该怎样珍惜才好，我们变得患得患失，神经紧张。

因为爱他，所以，我们害怕失去。我们惟恐一不小心，他就被哪个女人给拐跑了。于是，我们开始失去自我，我们开始敏感多疑。

爱他，我们就要相信他。只有你相信他，你才能更加幸福。因为你感觉到了幸福，你才会更爱他，而他也将更加爱你。而怀疑一旦植入你的心中，你的爱便在一点点消失。因为，你总把他往坏里想，自然，心理暗示着自己一天天远离他。你在痛苦中煎熬，你伤害着自己，也伤害着爱人。爱不是占有，爱是宽容，是宽厚，是通达，是理解。

爱是需要能力的。那能力就是，让你爱的人爱你。

 




看着看着，就想起了那个他=')
看完后，真的不只沉默，还emo了=.=

wrong way-to show the happiness

received my casing..=)
very very excited..xDD
waited for 4days, finally i got it..xDD

went to HUSM for lawatan..
im not showing my phone..
just want to share my happiness..
just want to show how happy i was as i got new & cute casing..*for me,its cute.=)
not showing my phone..
but very obviously some of them misunderstand what im trying to say =(
or maybe the way i speak was wrong=(
n they think i was showing my phone
she looked at my phone
i just want to say that i bought it through online order
just want to let her know that can buy this type of casing from website
but then he thought that im showing
showing i bought it through website
"mampu ke u olz?"

i dont understand
shopping online doesnt mean im rich
just i cant find this type of casing at here
or maybe got,just i didnt find it
n seldom going to kb mall
so i ordered it through website
n i searched for the price, many website are same price
so i think the price is NETT
so ordered it
n i think it can protect my screen
as i oways put my phone in my pocket, i scared my screen will scrashed
so i bought it
to protect it
i prefer use rmXX to protect the screeen,instead of wasting rmXXX to repair my screen

im not showing my phone
n i dun think i have to show it in front of u all
what for i show my phone??
-to show that im rich??-
sorry, i never think that im rich
-to show i got iphone??-
sorry,no point for me to show it
-to make everyone jelous??-
sorry,im not patient from 5U HUSM


seriously, im not showing.
maybe i made you all feel like that, im sorry