mixed emotions

HAPPY 
okay i gt bek my friendship in tis week..^^
thanks God finally my dear fren greet me when met up at cafe..=p
seriously if he din greet me tatday, i bet i wont get bek my friendship..=p
sorry lah i duno how mah..so just wait lor..
n after tatday,start talking lor greeting lor..
not bad not bad..^^


WORRY+SAD+FRUSTRATED
SUNDAY
mom palpated her abdomen n found something ther..
so checked for ultrasound..
result: 5x5 cm of tumor..=.=!!
discussed wit bro n sis...
bro booked a ticket on 20/9/2012..
planned come here earlier n check, operation..

TUESDAY
well,thers a bastard,someone without any knowledge
suggested mom to try wat HERBA
guess wat he said?
"my cancer cells spread to lungs oledi,after tried tat herb, now ok oledi"
big bro said the bastard said 3rd stage oledi..
2nd bro said if spread to lungs oledi considered 4th stage liao!!
what the hell...??
any doctor please check for him again..
n is it ur cancer definitely same wit moms..???!!
n have u ever search about the herb??
is it suit for mom??
y dun u search,mayb the herb only suit for bastard like u but not my mom..?=)
n please lah, dun trust the herb ONLY, do trust western medicine lah..

mom said she dunwan to come here lor,wanna try the herb 1st..
argued among family members for a longtime oso..
at last 2nd bro made a concession, since october gt another ticket,so mom come here on october lah,let her try the herb 1st..
-good, settled-

WEDNESDAY
when i was ironing my formal T..
guess wat, i changed oledi..=p
b4 tis u better dun expect i wil iron my clothes ok..
but since lastime GEK by someone for NO iron my uniform,so now wan iron lah..=p
while i started my 1st formal T, i brought 4 of it ok..=p
2nd bro calling..
he said mom them oledi noe tat the herb is nt suit for her,even cant cure cancer,but stil wan to try it.
wat???!!!!
tis is jx lik someone fell into sea, nvr try to save himself, without any struggle, n then "boop boop boop" jx slp in the deep sea forever.LOL.
duno how
duno wat shud i do
duno wat can i do
directly grab my phone n bek to room
use another number cal big bro

sis said mayb mom is giving up
y wan to gv up??
we tried our best,we worried,stress,especially 2nd bro,but then now wanna gv up??
wat for we supported stressed worried for such longtime???T.T
y dun just continue for the treatment???
i noe maybe u scared
we scared oso, u r our mom, do u think theres any son or daughter wan their mom passed away as soon as possible???
if we wan u pas away ASAP,we wil let u go without any operation at the 1st time u been diagnosed..
wat for we stress n worried at the outside of OT room??
wat for i cried n cried everytime i heard the bad news ???

please dun give up..
we still supporting u,dear mom..=)


-talked wit sis-
coughed nonstop..
went to toilet n vomit..@.@
2nd time in tis week, cough until vomit everything out..@.@
1stime was at DKB..coughed nonstop n went to toilet n vomit..@.@
oh no i think im getting serious..
oways cough nonstop since tuesday...
it has been longtime ago..
longtime ago ever coughed until vomit..@.@
now lik tat again..@.@





TODAY
ah H asked "demam?"
i said yes..
by the way actually no demam lah..
actually din realized bout tis..
after clas, ah Y asked me same question oso..
i gv same answer oso..
then ah T n ah Y gv me SKIN CONTACT..xDD
to feel my body temperature mah..=p
they said "whr gt demam lah."
oh no~~~
i just realized i NO DEMAM...>.<.
aduiii..
before tat i said demam to ah H pulak..malu i..(=///=)

ah H asked y dunwan eat medicine..
ok seriously i duno how to ans lah..@.@
i scared wit the bitter medicine??malu lah..>.<.


i jx realized im very super duper STUBBORN..@.@
tatday ah T asked me eat medicine oso,,
but i keep on refusing..@.@
after she paksa paksa,then just i eat..@.@
pity tis roomate..=p
but after i eat once,no 2nd time..=p
cox it cant cure mah...so better nt nid eat la..xDD
everytime like tis,must paksa paksa then jx wil eat..@.@
n realized cant stand wit "paksa paksa"..@.@
in front of the ppl who paksa paksa,im oways the loser..haizz..
anybody please tell me how to SAY NO to those who forcing me??=p


another clas at 2pm..
other groups presenting..
so i go out RELAX awhile~~=p
saw 3GUYS EATING AT THE OUTSIDE OF DK..
ohno~~~
bo jio ~~~
they looked lik v enjoy their party u noe...xDDD
somehow quite cute lah when i 1st saw tis scene,,,xDD
seriously..
cox i never expect they wil EATING AT THE OUTSIDE OF DK..xDD
in my impression  3 of them are good boy good student..
so when i saw them eating ther,wah~~!!xDD
sorry lah reli out of expectation lah..=p



okay still coughing..>.<.
i think nextweek hav to go n buy some medicine..
NEXT WEEK...xDD