关心+Wish You are Here

拒绝了拒绝了

虽然只是以朋友的身份关心

还是拒绝了
即使只是随口问问
也还是不想接受
只因担心如果接受了那份只是随口问问的关心
会让自己更加逃不出来


虽然那份关心给了很大的鼓励和支持
但最后还是决定就此打住
虽然收到那份关心时真的很希望可以像上次车祸后一样
抱住人大哭


就记忆里
抱着一个人哭
好像只有那么3次
第1次
3年前
吵架后的一句对不起
就让我哭了
第2+3次
都在同一天
就是车祸后在A&E看到阿良和阿妹后
抱着阿妹大哭
然后阿Z也来了
看到她走进来马上走过去就抱着她哭了


在很多人面前流泪过
有时觉得自己真的很容易就流泪
那眼泪真的好不值钱
只是
能让我抱着哭的那个人
绝对是我非常非常信任
对我来说也是很重要的人


第1个让我抱着哭的人已经走了好远好远
那个人，对我来说还重要吗？？



*if 2 past lovers cannot remain friends,either they are still in love or never were*
friend??
we are friend..
but, no,we arent friend..
bcox i refused to..T.T



心中的结
3年前早就该打开了
只是迟钝的自己总是把那结越拉越紧



解铃还需系铃人。。？？
系铃人？？
要怎么解？？





妈妈的事
压力很大
之前甚至希望世界末日真的在24号
至少一切都结束
至少我不用接受妈妈已经无药可救了的这个事实


i'm tired..
physically..
and mentally.....T.T

Stupid nurse

It has been 3 weeks ago
but stil can't 4gt bout tat
Bring another big trouble to family again
Cox of my stupidity
Altho studied nursing for 2years++
its final year now
But stil can't even handle while Aaron fit
Cause accident
N family have to pay for the car
Bring another trouble to them
T.T


Mom is suffering
Can't do anything
The only thing I do is pray
N singing church song
To cheer her up
Wan to acc her more
But dunwan to c how suffer she is
Dunwan to c mom cry in front of me
She suffered since I was born
Why has to continue suffering in other way
T.T

Stress with work
Assignment
Presentation
N when see mom suffers

Usually used to listen to songs
Earphone on
Turn on volume to the max
To release stress
But today
Decided to change a way
Cycling
At least release abit



can't remember
Since when love to drink neslo
Before this never ever want to drink neslo or Nescafé
Cox for me
It's bitter
But now
Neslo or Nescafé become my choices
N "bitter gourd"
Everytime
if lunch at cafe
No matter how bitter it is
It never n wouldnt bitter than life
:')


咖啡再苦
也不及生活苦


Tried to think positively
But always failed
T.T