I quit the job.
Hmm actually I haven't officially join.
I done medical fitness, visa, IC, bank account for salary n my uniform.
Supposed shud report duty as soon as possible after gt my uniform.
But then I've been told have to wear it only when I gt my uniform. I can't accept it.
When I was so excited I received my offer letter, i can work at O&G department, my dream to work at O&G, at least have chance to get midwife cert, n oso can leave 3U.
U noe, i decided to sacrifce what i have there, to leave my friends there, to pay for 35K, just to reach my dream.
Well, I'm here now, just have to report duty and I going to start my dream.
Just one more step.
But unfortunately I can't step it in.
I really cant. >.<
So well, everything burnt, everything gone. My dream, my friends and my job.
I'm sad.
I gt my uniform on Wednesday, I cried after get into the car.
Crying is a stupid act i noe.
But i cant control it.
It fell.
Told them when get into the car.
Guess what I got?
Scold n laughs.
When I was sad n hope can get some consolation from them.
But well.
It was just a f*cking idiot thought ever!
No even 1 better word, at least just to make me comfort a little bit. Just a little bit.
I was wrong, I expected too much from them! It just too much!
Expecting someone who treat his wife badly, or mayb can use terrible, to give some better word to make u comfort?!
WHO ARE YOU?
It just another f*cking stupid expectation!
I keep thinking what can n what shud I do.
It's my dream!
I really wan to reach my dream
Just one more step
Just one!! >.<.
I'm here
But I can't
I can't accept it :'(
Yes its 3k per month
I wish to save money, to reach my dream.
But at the same time I wish I can protect my dignity, and work happily,proudly.
Ever mentioned: the road I chose, I will walk it happily.
Yes I chose tis.
But I can't walk happily wit it.
So now I have to choose to leave.
Another road.
Noe tat feeling?
Almost touch the dream but u fell!
It just like u climb harder n harder n harder n one more step to reach the top of the highest mountain in the world but then u fell to the bottom of the mountain.
Told sis, bro, Mr Hong and May.
I'm happy my sis support my decision to leave here.
I thought bro disagree wit my decision.
I'm sad when my family didnt support my decision.
I'm sad I can't reach my dream n at the same time I'm sad my family didn't support my decision to leave.
I decided to leave my dream, to leave here. But I just nid my family to support my decision so tat I won't feel like I'm alone.
Told Mr. Hong bout tat, he said shud tell them wats in my mind, my feeling, my thoughts n my plan. He said 3choices, 1: just work for ur dream 2: leave ur house 3:
Before the 3rd choice, I said I reli do think to leave the house, leave my family n leave everyone here.
I noe it's a stupid thought.
But I'm rely sad when I can't get my family supports. :'(
I'm stupid, used to think nonsense whenever I'm sad. :(
The officer advised to have a try
She said it just a part of uniform.
But I rely can't accept it.
Prefer to leave the dream.
Dream is just a dream. :'(
