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拒绝了拒绝了

虽然只是以朋友的身份关心

还是拒绝了
即使只是随口问问
也还是不想接受
只因担心如果接受了那份只是随口问问的关心
会让自己更加逃不出来


虽然那份关心给了很大的鼓励和支持
但最后还是决定就此打住
虽然收到那份关心时真的很希望可以像上次车祸后一样
抱住人大哭


就记忆里
抱着一个人哭
好像只有那么3次
第1次
3年前
吵架后的一句对不起
就让我哭了
第2+3次
都在同一天
就是车祸后在A&E看到阿良和阿妹后
抱着阿妹大哭
然后阿Z也来了
看到她走进来马上走过去就抱着她哭了


在很多人面前流泪过
有时觉得自己真的很容易就流泪
那眼泪真的好不值钱
只是
能让我抱着哭的那个人
绝对是我非常非常信任
对我来说也是很重要的人


第1个让我抱着哭的人已经走了好远好远
那个人，对我来说还重要吗？？



*if 2 past lovers cannot remain friends,either they are still in love or never were*
friend??
we are friend..
but, no,we arent friend..
bcox i refused to..T.T



心中的结
3年前早就该打开了
只是迟钝的自己总是把那结越拉越紧



解铃还需系铃人。。？？
系铃人？？
要怎么解？？





妈妈的事
压力很大
之前甚至希望世界末日真的在24号
至少一切都结束
至少我不用接受妈妈已经无药可救了的这个事实


i'm tired..
physically..
and mentally.....T.T

Stupid nurse

It has been 3 weeks ago
but stil can't 4gt bout tat
Bring another big trouble to family again
Cox of my stupidity
Altho studied nursing for 2years++
its final year now
But stil can't even handle while Aaron fit
Cause accident
N family have to pay for the car
Bring another trouble to them
T.T


Mom is suffering
Can't do anything
The only thing I do is pray
N singing church song
To cheer her up
Wan to acc her more
But dunwan to c how suffer she is
Dunwan to c mom cry in front of me
She suffered since I was born
Why has to continue suffering in other way
T.T

Stress with work
Assignment
Presentation
N when see mom suffers

Usually used to listen to songs
Earphone on
Turn on volume to the max
To release stress
But today
Decided to change a way
Cycling
At least release abit



can't remember
Since when love to drink neslo
Before this never ever want to drink neslo or Nescafé
Cox for me
It's bitter
But now
Neslo or Nescafé become my choices
N "bitter gourd"
Everytime
if lunch at cafe
No matter how bitter it is
It never n wouldnt bitter than life
:')


咖啡再苦
也不及生活苦


Tried to think positively
But always failed
T.T

Tired

Im not fine
Im not okay
Tired of showing "relax la~"
"I'm okay"
- my smiling face-

When everything goes wrong
Goes worse
When ruptured  tumor spreads
When I can't do anything to help
Can only looked at mom
See how suffered she was
Can't do anything
Saw mom crying
Suffering

I won't gv up
But I dunwan to see mom suffersi
But then this stupid nurse duno anything
Can't help anything
Only noe cry n cry

Scared cant control my tears in front of mom
Choose to escape
escape from everythg
Hide in room

Insomnia
Cried until fall asleep
The only way

Mom said she mis grandma n Aaron
But she x dare to call grandma, scare wil cry
Wat to do....,.

Any body please tell me

tshirt from thailand

jeng jeng~~

geng thailand???XDDD

okay...

somehow quite sad lah when noe 1 of us cant fit in..>.<.

cox L size toooooooo big,so bought all M size..

thought everyone can fit in..

but then i 4gt our tallest member..@.@

4gt to measure the length of tee..>.<.

so he has to wear a jacket so tat wont looks too fit..

haizzz...

tatday when noe 5 of us can fit in,how happy i was..

cox tis was my 2nd time to buy tshirt for fren wat..:p

when was my 1st time??

well...

around 3 years ago...??

almost 4years i think..

bought for the special-ED him..

ED???

once...

expired oledi...=) 

but then unfortunately my first time,gave to specialED him,but then he cant fit in..

so i never see he wears the tshirt i bought for him...

how sad...

as birthday present lagi tuh..=.=

LOL

so,my 2nd time,gv them~~xDD

of cox happy lah cox they can wear it..

n i guess our tallest member sure can fit in too,as he is much more thinner than me..:p

but then,out of expectation,his height...@.@

made his tee looked shorter...

ngaidiiii....

hmmm...how lah..

nextime if hang out again,has to wear jacket lagi..>.<.

make him like a boss pulak..xDD

anyway,happy lah tonite..=))

as i was emo yesterday...

not only emo,but cried like break with boyfren..T.T

cox i din expect puan wil scold our ketua...

n all of us never mention tat our ketua din inform..

so felt bersalah dgn ketua..

please lah,nothing related with ketua,wat for we blame everything on him??

n i noe our madam well...

dun try to complain anyone in front of them,complain anything,argue anything wit them..

every little thingy,wil spread out..

once one of them noe,all of them wil noe..

yes im blur2..

but im stil clear bout this,dun try to complain or blame on anybody,u wil become shit if u did tis...

so i din blame on our ketua,n actually nothing related wit our ketua pun,he did informed us..

so wat for we blame on him??

we arent crazy pls...

but then he scolded by puan pulak..

made me frustrated for whole night long..T.T

even cried in front of ah Z..

n cried alone in the middle of the night

longtime no cry like tis liao

thank to God ,our ketua din angry at us..=)

thank to God,everything for today..happy with them..=)

smile

lasnite lepak-ing at LCCT..
"assess" the environment at airport..:p
suddenly TERrealized..:p
no matter what happens,our earth wont stop moving,n others still busy with their own works,maybe they will remember what happen today,but after a period of time,nobody wil remember about tat anymore..
earth-still moving
humans-still working
you?
wat for u mad for the same reason,when nobody care about tat?
wat for u keep worrying for the same problem?
just smile.
n tell urself,its okay..=)
*sometimes its hard lah,but just try lor*

relax lah~~=)

NO completely removed

-4pints of blood transfused-
-fever, 39 degree celsius-
-hospitalized acquired pneumonia-
-oxygen 3L via nasal prong-
-complaint of backache-
-on morphine for 3days-


mom's tumor wasnt completely removed
n doctor said better chemo in 2weeks
mom even cant walk properly now
has to do chemo?
i dont think mom can cope it
but
chemo is the best for her
but then bro said scare of those side effects
such as,renal failure


chemo at kuching?
or HUSM?
argued for a long time too
at last decided to do it at HUSM
if at kuching
dad tired too
mayb november wil go over ther


please
dont give us any bad news
i do believe everything will b okay
Mom,be strong.<3
We want you to attend our convos,our weddings,everything in our future.=)
u paid ur 20++years for us,its not worth if u cant attend everything in our future.
after we grad,everyone has at least rm2000 income every month.
n our future doctor at least rm4500.
its time for u n dad to say "money money lai".=)
so,please be strong..
dont give up..<3
n your youngest naughtiest daughter still not yet marry,dunwan c ur caring nice good handsome son-in-law liao?=p
jia u~<3
like wat i always said,
"hmm sai geng,ahbi hai dai teng~"
dun worry,tistime wont blackout liao..^^

album-taken in toiletss

alright tats wat i did everyday..

routine...xDD 

always facing to the mirror..

bcox my hand not very long,n i think my face look quite big if zi pai like tat..

so...

so.....use mirror better lah..xDD

ngok!

n!!

everytime take photo,i can smile happily...

LOL~~

relax lah...xDDDD

like wat little junior asked " y everytime i saw u u always smile ar,like no worry 1,so happy go lucky.."

reli meh??

i oways smile??@.@

relax lah~~xDD

arrrggghhh

i wan bbq with them lah
at resort lagi
sure fun
arrrgggghhhhh!!!!
i wanna go back now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T.T

fill in the blank =)

MOOD for today

-when there is a NO,from him-

okay emo for whole night longT.T

altho noe wont make any changes even i ask to change
but stil try to ask
cox never try never noe mah
well
somehow
quite disappointed when been "rejected"
even tho had expected this
but then
still
hmm
the feeling of disappointed
more than the expected
unexpected feeling
T.T

n i felt myself quite annoying n troublesomeT.T
sorry


anyway
thanks for trying to cheer me up early in the morning.=)
really early in the morning nih=)
by telling some actually quite funny joke lah.
but sorry
cox really quite sad
sad mood more than happy mood

anyway
thanks a lot too.<3

overnight

okay finally its time for me to update my blog..=)
for today.


okay i was emo just now..
sad
frustrated
cried for few secondT.T
cox i cant join my batch bbq on this coming saturday>.<.
i wanna join
as tis is our 1st hang out for bbq
yes lastime ever bbq at perak too
but it wasnt same
lastime wit lecturers
but this time
all students
n my besties going too
i cant imagine how fun it will be
i noe it must be very very very fun
but unfortunately i cant join
wanna save all of our memories
wanna create more n more memory between our batch
just like interyear game
jason n liang asked to go to kl on thurday night,then walk around at kl
n jason will back to kelantan on saturday night while liang n i go to kuching
i wanna go to kl,cox i guess mayb going to sunway lagoon
but then i dunwan to go too bcox tatday was my LAST interyear game that i can join
ever frustrated for few days too
at last decided to choose interyear game as i wan to enjoy with them
n yes,i enjoyed very very much
but then i failed to enjoy wit them for our 1st hang out
failed to create more memory wit them
yes nex sem can or may have another 1 too
but,duno
if can,i wan join all of our batch activity
try my best dun miss it
but tistime i cant join

how good if im rich n can book a new ticket for flight on friday
then can join on saturday.T.T

emo to the max
T.T

-warm-

everyone,thanks a lot..<3<3

thank to God again..
for my broadband..
as it wasnt function since 1 week ago..so only can use hp to online..=)
thank to God,someone cal me n ask me hav a cal to maxis centre..
n then, problem solved.=)

3rd operation

15/10/2012

okay admitted to ward around 8.15am lor..
n last time doctor said wil operate at tengah hari..
ok lor..
mom asked dad bring us go eat breakfast lor..=p
so dad,kakak n i eat 1st lor..
liang later..xDD
future doctor has to practice to tahan lapar..xD

around 9am liang called dad n said wil operate soon..@.@
so we bek to ward lor..thanks God during tatime we hd our breakfasr oledi..xDD

then 9.30am like tat send to OT..


-around 2pm-
-OPERATION SUCCESSED-
praise to the Lord..<3<3
He is mighty to save..<3

and there was another thingy made me totally WARMMMM by them~~~
my besties...
my coursemates...
sent msg to 3 of them..
their replies were so........................
arrrgghhh~~~made me wanna cry lah...
cry due to too happy lah bengong...=p
really too touching u noe....<3<3<3
"lega~hugs from everyone in lab~congrate dun worry too much~"
n i posted on group dip nursing batch 4..our group..
posted about this good news..
their replies....
made me felt like wanna find ultraman to bring me back to usm immediately n hug them tightly ..<3<3<3<3
seriously thank to God for giving me such good course matesssssssssssssssss...<3<3<3
no wonder when i saw our batch photo lastime,i was like wahhhhh i loved them...<3<3<3
thanks for everything,my besties , my dear course mates...
thanks for all of your support..<3<3<3
without their support,i bet i cant handle all of tis..i bet my eyes going blind due to keep on crying..
but,bcox of them,bcox they keep on giving me support, i din cry as frequently as before this..=p
bcox of them,i noe im not alone,i gt them with me..
although they are my course mates,but, they arent JUST my course mates..<3<3
they meant a lot to me..<3


you'll see everything and know everybody well when you're in trouble.=)

once again,
THANKS EVERYONE...<3<3<3

continued from "-enjoyed-"

alright~~
interyear game~~
after explorace.saw others were playing "semakin jauh semakin sayang"..
okay good name lah..xDD
i see lor..
but then seems like they nid player..xDD
so i gebo gebo said i wan join lor..xDD
okay relax lah~
i joined..@.@
but then actually tatime i duno wats the game..just simply join in..=.=
n then when i stand ther,keep on asking others bout how to play..xDD
okay the game was 2 people stand face to face and then 1ppl throw a balloon(filled wit water) to another player,n then the 1 who receieved the balloon has to 1 step backward,n throw it back to the sender..
n repeat the same thing,keep on moving backward if can catch the balloon..
okay i cant catch it before she reach the half way..sorry..>.<.
then she cant catch it too,i think bcox im too GANAS..so she cant catch it..sorry boss..@.@
only 2chances..@.@

then just tengok2 lor..:p
aiyaaa 3rd year 1st prize lagi~~<3<3
altho not my group,but stil hapi lah..xDD
my coursemate nih..xDD
then jalan2 sini n sana lor..

ah T n ah Y ask to sit at stadium ther lo..at least gt seats for us instead of standing..
deal~~
take a cup of cold drink..n walk to ther..=p
saw ah Z them were playing game in the middle of the field...
so, as u noe,my hobby is gebo2..xDD
so ask ah T n ah Y go n support them at ther lor..
but then ah T refused,so only ah Y n i go lor..xDD
start raining when we reach ther..
@.@
okay.....................
duduk..............
u noe,both of us just quite coolllll~~~~
n romantic lah..xDD
others were busy to get an umbrella or trying to get out from rain..
but then we were steady~~~~
'feel the rain'~~
fuiyooo~~~XDD

n it getting heavier..@.@
relax lah~~~~=p
okay good~~ah Z them won the game~~pheewwiiittt~~XDD



-still raining-
saw ah D n some of the girls stood under the rain n support OUR BOYS ply futsal..
our boy=our male coursemates okay..
looked not bad..
so ajak ah Y again lor..
okay im bad lah,always ajak ah Y do something weird..=p


well~~
we were shouting under the rain..
even guys just stand under the tent..
but then these gals under the rain pulak..
reli too excited nih..xDD


okay i duno we stand ther for how long..
but i realized it getting funER when someone start pouring water onto others..xDD
okay good~~~
n we started addicted to it after few minutes.xDD
poured water on each other..
its fun......
to the max!!!
under the rain..xDD
good~~<3
n ah V poured water from my back..
i think he poured from my hair lah..
cox water flow into my Tshirt n i was like ohnooooooooooooooooooo

ITS COLD you know!!!XDD
if just pour to tshirt,stil okay..duno y..
okay shaking for few seconds..=p
then continue ply wit it..xDD
seriously,those who ply under the rain,all were 3rd year SENIORS~~
relax lah~~
seniors oso human mah..xDDD


-time for prizes-xD
okay i realized i lost my favourite earring !!!
green leaf 1..>.<.
made me emo..>.<.
i loved it lah..
n it matched wit my interyear tee..green too..>.<.
shitttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!=(
but wat to do,lost oledi..@.@


okay we decided to get our hamper by 5 of us togeter..
but then 2guys disagreed wit tat..=(
so cancelled lor..
n 3 of us dunwan get it alone..>.<.
but then at last i get it alone when announced 2nd prize cox dunwan other "not related" ppl get it for us..=p
at least wan get it by anyone of the 5members mah..xDD
(okay ah Z told me "Something" happened when i get my hamper..i noe bout tat in evening when lepak to her room.. the story was : ah H rushing2 go in front to capture photo when im on my way to get hamper..n then some of them 'kacau2' lor..ask him y rushing2,wan take whose pic..n another some of them said oh yong..)
okay i din realized bout tat at all...cox i fully paid my attention on the hamper..=p
aiyaaa relax lah~~
i think if ah T or ahY going to get the hamper,he wil rushing2 go n capture too..
OUR hamper nih~~~xDD
just pity him lor oways kacau2 by others cox of me..@.@
sorry boss..>.<.



-interyear game 2012 officially finished-
okay headache after bath..@.@
lesson of the day : do not play under the rain.
no matter mom always said donot ply under the rain,wil get sick..
okay i shud listen to mom..=p
n this lesson of the day remind me of another thingy..
few years ago mom oso ever said " donot couple when u r young".
okay lastly i noe y..@.@
wil get hurt if couple earlier..>.<.
n very obviously ............................
okay enough!!!

conclusion is , mom's words always right~<3

-enjoyed-

first of all,i would like to say "thanks God.."
for listening to my prayers my problems, and settled all of it..<3
and of cox, i want to say thank u  to all of my course mates too..<3

-head of nursing course verbally allowed to minta cuti-
-all of my lecturers signed my letter-
-settled everything about surat cuti-
-found time for me to present-
-all of my course mates willing to spend their break time to listen to my group presentation-
-many of them asking about mom,send regards-(seriously n honestly,i felt warm when they did it,because some of them,i seldom talk with them.but then they still caring.thanks.<3)
-spent my thursday and friday happily before going back-
-fully enjoyed interyear game-


okay..
frustrated for few days about my surat cuti..
since puan rejected the letter by prof usm,she asked for latest 1 from doctor kuching..
how to get it wor...=(
but thanks God at last everything settled..=)

another puan asked to present 1st before going back..
seriously,felt so sorry to all my group members..>.<.
bcox we all gt another presentation on thursday,but then since i hav to present 1st,so they have to rush for 2 presentation in 1night..>.<,
sorry..
and they keep on saying nvm nvm when i appologized ..
made me felt like.....
aduiii...menyusahkan mereka nia..>.<.
really sorry..and thanks many many many many..for willing to present on thursday..=)

-thursday-
-lab-
TERingat my surat cuti when i stepped in the lab..@.@
IT STILL ON MY TABLE!!
damn........
hav to present during time break,take around half hour,hav to go to nurani  n bek to ppsk in half hour??
im not ultraman..not mario lah..=(
surely cant bek in time..@.@
so wan to boro motor from boys lor..
ah N bhind me..
so asked him 1st lor..
but then his motor is hand gear punya..@.@
even kaki punya pun not very pro liao,how to use hand gear lah..@.@
thanks God again cox ah H beside him..
so asked oso lor..
car..going bek to nurani too..
ahaa~~
can tumpang2..=p

thanks God once again for our class finished at 9am,after presentation n everything,around 10am only..n class start on 11am..=)

-okay took my paper-
-he done his work-
asked wan send me to wher..
okay i wondered too,where shud i go at tat time..@.@
alang2 mah..
10.30am like tat..
n he is going to eat at cafe near wit golf court ther,since his geng boycott murni cafe..xD
so bad..=p
n i wonder can i go with him..bcox if i go murni cafe,i hav to eat alone ther wor..>.<.
NO~~!!
but if i go with him,im the only girl ther..weird..@.@
so i decided to go to murni cafe lor..who noes mayb wil meet ah T them ler~~no FOREVER ALONE de face liao..xDD
but then ah H said he acc me to eat at murni lor..
ahaa~~
good2..^^

saw ah N,ah HF n ah I..
the moment i saw them ther,i was like ohno~~~
sure gek liao..salah faham liao..=p
okay like wat i expect,gek lor..
relax lah~~xD

saw ah T at cafe too..xDDD
but then no sit with her lo..
since i put my beg near at "the geng"'s table oledi..xD
n ah H said he acc me,if i go n sit with ah T,hmmm...felt sory pulak..@.@
aduii..reli hidup susah nih..=p
ok lah at last i sit with them lor..xD


-presentation for puan J at dkb-
after my group,we all hav to stand ther n puan wil gv comment lor..
tat satay ar...>.<.
everytime i look at her,cant stop laughing..
but!!
u noe,puan still giving comment, cant laugh..>.<.
THE MOMENT,u r not allow to laugh..
tahan lah...
almost pengsan..xDDD


seriously his body shampoo just too strong smell..=p
sit bside him can smell it oledi..=p
not bad ya tis body shampoo,made people smells good..=p
i wonder y i used body shampoo too but cant smell good like him..@.@
n,"body shampoo" reminds me of HIM..=.=!!
the one ever meant everything to me lol
used body shampoo wit strong smell one lol
okay enough!



-evening-
schedule show 4.30pm wil start the opening ceremony..
i go wit satay n ah TR..reached ther around 5.30pm..
but haven start yet..xD

-senamrobik-
-sesi ambil gambar-xDD
then b supporter lor..xDD
okay i jerit2 like crazy...xDD
supporter mah...
must jerit2 okay..xDD
n the funny moment was the conversation between supporters..xDD
i saw ah L n ah F played futsal..so i jerit their name lah..xDD
L~~L~~L~~xDD
then someone bside me said "wahh 2 nerd main futsal"
wahahahahaha...reli funny lah..xDD
wait,i x mean tat i agreed the statement ya..
just , felt funny lah..xDDDDD

n took some AWESOME photo..like it like it!!!XDD
nextime wan take wit my future bf lah..xDD


-friday-
too excited!!!!XD
after warming up, EXPLORACE~~!!
ahaaa~~~
excited to the max...xDDD
thanks God~~ah H bring a small bottle of water..xDD
if not,we r going to pengsan at somewher..

1st station : everybody must eat 3leafs with budu(??)
at first i was excited bcox nvr try mah..
but then the moment i put it into my mouth..
i was like ......................... werrrkkkkkkk!!
luckily gt water..if not..cant imagine wat shud i do...xDD

2nd station : BRING belut to another baldi..with palm!!! everybody must..>.<.
i was like ...................shittttttttt when i saw the baldi with belut ther..@.@
must hav a skin contact wit the belut..@.@
okay fine..
fight for first mah..xDD
hmm...belut not as scary as i thought lor..xDD

3rd station : anyaman..
wit no scissors no ruler..@.@
but thanks to the 1 who created HANDPHONE..
we used handphone as ruler..:p

4th station : take a sweet from a plate fulled with flour..by mouth..
relax lah~~:p lasyear played tis too..XD
just dislike my mouth fulled wit flour..
n my tshirt too..@.@

5th station : filled in the baldi until the ping pong ball get out from it..
not bad~~xD

6th station : okay we started blurred before we get tis station(if not mistaken)=p
we hav to run from masjid to tempat bayar yuran..ohno~~
use book clips to "build" a small camp..xDD
okay thanks to my teammates..they r just too pro~~xDD
awesome~~
without them i bet i cant pass tis station..<3

7th station : pick out black pepper from beras-beras sekalian..xDD
okay good~!!
ah H shaked the plate n we picked lor..XDD
good idea~~
yes!!tis station!!
TOTALLY WRONG!!!!!
gv us a clue..
but then the clue was for that station!! 
okay fine!!


8th station : find 5sen from a tin fulled with soil..xD
not bad too~~xDD


after tis station,we runnnnnn to the final station~~
to show them we completed our game oledi mah..xDD
saw the paper was blank..
so i YEAH~~~~~
but then the junior there said we r 2nd..@.@
rupa2nya she din write it down for the 1st prize winners..@.@
okay lah~~
2nd not bad what~~
worth for us to runnnnn here n ther..xDD


wait,wanna sleep liao..
to be continue..=p

tomolo mama going to hav an operation..
hope everygthing goes smoothly..=)
Lord,please bless mama..
and gv strength to all of us.

NOTHING

2 of my frens having sore throat this week..
n i sent out 2 types of "medicine for sore throat" to them..=p

yesterday talked wit mom..
told her bout tis..
she said " u have to care ur fren,always..like ur bro.."
hmm.. then i realized i never care bout others..
i only care myself.. until now,almost 20..
stil x care bout others..
for example, planned go johor buy a birthday gift for him,but then directly 4gt bout it when i reached johor..
only remembered bout tat when im on the way to kelantan..=.=
wongahbi can NO CARE OTHERS until like tat..@.@
well,i bet there is no CARING in my dictionary
lol

sent them medicine for sore throat,bcox i was facing the same problem for almost 2weeks..@.@
so i noe their feeling
so i bought n sent to them
after talked wit mom, then just i noe my actions called "CARING"
=)
okay good,finally i noe how to care others..=)



-yesterday-
duno y..
moody..
so went to cycling alone..
turn on the volume to the max
tried to cheer up
not bad:
the feeling of cycling alone n listen to the music


-today-
another moody day too..>.<.


put on headphone n turn to the max
i guess tis is the only way to GET OUT FROM MOODY
n oso cycling

MOODY!!
PLEASE AWAY FROM ME!!!!

=)

Goodnight texts.=)
the MOST important thing is, telling her how much you love her..<3
ALWAYS !! XDD

怎样去爱你的男人，看完你会沉默的

年轻时，我们不懂爱。我们以为不许他抽烟，是为了不让他得肺癌；不许他喝酒，是为了保护他的肝；不许他看通宵，不许他上网，是为了保证他的睡眠；不许他和朋友打牌、上馆子，是为了不让他荒废事业，一事无成。

爱他，我们就要给他一定的空间。我们不能因为爱，就剥夺了他的爱好和自由。男人抽烟喝酒，就像女人逛街穿衣一样，那是一种由衷的快乐。没有了它，男人就少了太多的快乐。所以，如果不是嗜烟酗酒，如果不至于影响健康，那么，抽烟的时候帮他点火，喝酒的时候陪他来两杯吧！也许你会发现，他的快乐其实就是你的快乐。

男人喜欢什么，陪他就好了，窝在他的怀里，看他笑，看他狂，看他丧气，你只要陪着他就好。不要抱怨，也许当时他把你忘了，以至于你睡着了，他都不知道，但是，当他忙完时，他一定会温柔地抱起你。

男人爱上网，你就让他上吧，有些时候，男人可以在网中找到成就感，找到英雄感，人总要有点精神寄托的。男人当然更是少不了朋友的，只要他不是夜夜笙萧，偶尔和朋友聚聚，你该为他高兴。一个有朋友的人，他才不会孤独，不会偏执。不要嫉妒他的朋友，不要说你没有他的朋友重要，一个人的一生中，除了爱情，亲情，他还需要友情的。

拥有时，我们不懂爱，易把亲近当疏远。

我们会发现，我们爱的那个男人对谁都好。他在车上可以和陌生人亲切的交谈；他看见有老人会热心地让座；他在路上跟每一个熟悉的人打招呼；在外面他似乎事事周全，可是，唯有对我们，他是那样的容易忽略。他会忘了你的生日，他会忘了陪你逛街，甚至放假后，他倒头就睡，他竟然都不陪你说话。

你很疑惑，为什么，为什么这个男人他对谁都好，唯独对我毫不重视？他陪朋友可以聊到深夜，为什么面对我竟无话可说，为什么让他陪我看电视，他就说累了要睡觉？

亲爱的，千万不要这样想，他对谁都好，对谁都周全，那是因为他和他们有距离。男人是很虚荣的，他要面子，他也要应酬。而你，你是他的爱人，在他眼里，你就是自己人，他无须在你面前活得那样累。

所以，你要明白一点，男人对你忽略，其实，正是把你当作自己一样的看待。所以，不要抱怨他忽略你，记住，只要他能在和别人亲切交谈的时候紧握着你的手，在晚上睡觉的时候紧抱着你的身躯，那么，你就无须自己折磨自己。你要相信，他爱你就像爱自己。

我们爱他，真的，这种爱甚至可以深入骨髓。我们以为世界上只有这个男人最好，我们以为我们爱的男人，别的女人也一定喜欢。于是，我们把他含在口里怕化了，捧在手里怕碎了。我们不知道该怎样珍惜才好，我们变得患得患失，神经紧张。

因为爱他，所以，我们害怕失去。我们惟恐一不小心，他就被哪个女人给拐跑了。于是，我们开始失去自我，我们开始敏感多疑。

爱他，我们就要相信他。只有你相信他，你才能更加幸福。因为你感觉到了幸福，你才会更爱他，而他也将更加爱你。而怀疑一旦植入你的心中，你的爱便在一点点消失。因为，你总把他往坏里想，自然，心理暗示着自己一天天远离他。你在痛苦中煎熬，你伤害着自己，也伤害着爱人。爱不是占有，爱是宽容，是宽厚，是通达，是理解。

爱是需要能力的。那能力就是，让你爱的人爱你。

 




看着看着，就想起了那个他=')
看完后，真的不只沉默，还emo了=.=

wrong way-to show the happiness

received my casing..=)
very very excited..xDD
waited for 4days, finally i got it..xDD

went to HUSM for lawatan..
im not showing my phone..
just want to share my happiness..
just want to show how happy i was as i got new & cute casing..*for me,its cute.=)
not showing my phone..
but very obviously some of them misunderstand what im trying to say =(
or maybe the way i speak was wrong=(
n they think i was showing my phone
she looked at my phone
i just want to say that i bought it through online order
just want to let her know that can buy this type of casing from website
but then he thought that im showing
showing i bought it through website
"mampu ke u olz?"

i dont understand
shopping online doesnt mean im rich
just i cant find this type of casing at here
or maybe got,just i didnt find it
n seldom going to kb mall
so i ordered it through website
n i searched for the price, many website are same price
so i think the price is NETT
so ordered it
n i think it can protect my screen
as i oways put my phone in my pocket, i scared my screen will scrashed
so i bought it
to protect it
i prefer use rmXX to protect the screeen,instead of wasting rmXXX to repair my screen

im not showing my phone
n i dun think i have to show it in front of u all
what for i show my phone??
-to show that im rich??-
sorry, i never think that im rich
-to show i got iphone??-
sorry,no point for me to show it
-to make everyone jelous??-
sorry,im not patient from 5U HUSM


seriously, im not showing.
maybe i made you all feel like that, im sorry

IP4S casing

 nice right???xDD

 

how good if my BOYFREN is using iphone 4s oso..

couple casing nih..xDD

BOYFREN~~sott..xDDD

ok lah,thanks God..

if my closed fren or future boyfren is using iphone 4s oso,i guess i m going to waste my money again..=p

luckily NO BOYFREN..so tat can save my money..=p

as u noe,i liked to buy something like couple2 1 lah..
cute wat...xDD

few years ago~~~
bought a pair of FOOT keychains..
for a special one..<3
but then it became the break-up-gift
as it was the last gift
LOL
2 besties had realized the problem between us before that
just im quite SLOW
so din realized anything wrong before everything happened


can i guess where is it now..??
well the answer will be "destroyed n maybe been recycled "
LOL
where's mine..??
somewhere in my house maybe
LOL


just TERthink of this..=p
no emo2..=)
jx after tat i told myself - nvr buy any couple2 thingy lor..
made myself emo2 nia if break-up..=p



*but i wonder : really wont buy again meh if gt BOYFREN..xDD*

27092012

-church-
-崇拜过后-
陪妈妈去厕所咯。。
经过阿V，他叫ahbi,还用拳头打我手臂。。
当然只是轻轻啦，大力的话我会放过他吗？？xDD
*我几时变这么man去，跟他用这种方式打招呼啊？=p*
通常这种用拳头来打招呼的不是只有男人与男人之间的沟通方式吗？？
oh no~~~
原来我是男人。。>.<.


-celebrating mooncake festival-
of cox gt food lah..=p
n my favorite "jelly mooncake"~~~
oh no~~
just too excited...xDD
but then the queue was too long...
so i LEPAK beside ah J lor..
he is EATING..@.@
n im LOOKING..xDD

saw ah E's turn...xDD
fLY~~~~to ah E ther lah..xDD
ask him help me take jelly..=p
ah V opposite of us,GEK lor..
said cant eat,later wil bcum fatter...@.@
but then he gv me a plate n said " nah,go take lah.."
aiya this kid ar,ask me diet but gv me plate pulak..xDD

malu lah jump queue..(=///=)
so i refused lah,jx ask ah E take for me..:p
but ah E take the plate n ask me queue in front of him..
oh no~~so i take it n queue lor..
u noe,tat ah V ar!!
looked at the back n said " she is ahbi,she jumped queue"..
weyyyy....paiseh moh...
but luckily he din speak it out loudly,so nobody hear diok...xDD


有一种菜燕，只剩2个了。。
阿V拿一个，另一个给另一个朋友拿掉了。。=(
我就一直讲我也要。。:P
阿V就把他碗里的那个给我~~
哎呀~~真是好人啊。。xDD

走到菜燕part时，都剩不多了。。=(
就每一种拿一个咯。。xDD


就专门吃菜燕月饼而已。。@.@

-吃好-
-洗好-
准备去楼下找老二咯。。
因为本来要回家了，然后妈妈跟牧师讲话，所以我跑去楼上吃。。xDD

经过食物堆~~
看到阿V又在拿着菜燕~~
就叫他再拿个给我。。=p
他就夹一个给我，我拿了就道谢下很潇洒的走了。。xDD
走到一半又听到他叫我。。@.@
害我很不潇洒的又走回去。。。@.@
他又从他碗里夹一个给我~~
哎呀~~真是太好了啦~~
感动感动~~~xDD
*我好像很容易被食物感动hor??>.<.*


后来在回家路上，我就跟大家说我吃了很多菜燕咯。。
阿J就开玩笑的讲：他们都在害你。。xDD
我就讲可是我被害的很高兴啊。。xDDD
有的吃嘛。。。XDD


supper..@.@
kueh tiaw sup..@.@
still <3 to eat kueh tiaw..@.@
everytime lunch at murni cafe,always eat kueh tiaw if no vege stall..@.@
weirdddd...=p

okay i think i dun have to diet liao..
as i FAILED to make it..@.@

郭書瑤《 放棄你》完整版MV

tumors

Mom felt unwell again
N so went to doctor chieng for a check
Ultrasound again
Found another tumor with 5cmx11cm
That day another doctor didnt find this
He only found another tumor
Thats mean now there is 2 tumors
And its bigger than 1st tumor at 2 years ago

bro booked another ticket for parents come over here
On tuesday

Bro said maybe has to order for special service from MAS
Thats needs an assistant and a wheelchair for mom
As mom nowadays cant walk for a period of time


Im scared
Mom is in danger
2big tumors
N mom was crying when she called bro
I dont dare to call her
I scare i will cry


I tried to be strong
But i still cant make it
Im sorry i cant be strong
T.T
And i dont know how to be strong at this moment
T.T

TO LOVE YOU MORE- CELINE DION (LYRICS)

mixed emotions

HAPPY 
okay i gt bek my friendship in tis week..^^
thanks God finally my dear fren greet me when met up at cafe..=p
seriously if he din greet me tatday, i bet i wont get bek my friendship..=p
sorry lah i duno how mah..so just wait lor..
n after tatday,start talking lor greeting lor..
not bad not bad..^^


WORRY+SAD+FRUSTRATED
SUNDAY
mom palpated her abdomen n found something ther..
so checked for ultrasound..
result: 5x5 cm of tumor..=.=!!
discussed wit bro n sis...
bro booked a ticket on 20/9/2012..
planned come here earlier n check, operation..

TUESDAY
well,thers a bastard,someone without any knowledge
suggested mom to try wat HERBA
guess wat he said?
"my cancer cells spread to lungs oledi,after tried tat herb, now ok oledi"
big bro said the bastard said 3rd stage oledi..
2nd bro said if spread to lungs oledi considered 4th stage liao!!
what the hell...??
any doctor please check for him again..
n is it ur cancer definitely same wit moms..???!!
n have u ever search about the herb??
is it suit for mom??
y dun u search,mayb the herb only suit for bastard like u but not my mom..?=)
n please lah, dun trust the herb ONLY, do trust western medicine lah..

mom said she dunwan to come here lor,wanna try the herb 1st..
argued among family members for a longtime oso..
at last 2nd bro made a concession, since october gt another ticket,so mom come here on october lah,let her try the herb 1st..
-good, settled-

WEDNESDAY
when i was ironing my formal T..
guess wat, i changed oledi..=p
b4 tis u better dun expect i wil iron my clothes ok..
but since lastime GEK by someone for NO iron my uniform,so now wan iron lah..=p
while i started my 1st formal T, i brought 4 of it ok..=p
2nd bro calling..
he said mom them oledi noe tat the herb is nt suit for her,even cant cure cancer,but stil wan to try it.
wat???!!!!
tis is jx lik someone fell into sea, nvr try to save himself, without any struggle, n then "boop boop boop" jx slp in the deep sea forever.LOL.
duno how
duno wat shud i do
duno wat can i do
directly grab my phone n bek to room
use another number cal big bro

sis said mayb mom is giving up
y wan to gv up??
we tried our best,we worried,stress,especially 2nd bro,but then now wanna gv up??
wat for we supported stressed worried for such longtime???T.T
y dun just continue for the treatment???
i noe maybe u scared
we scared oso, u r our mom, do u think theres any son or daughter wan their mom passed away as soon as possible???
if we wan u pas away ASAP,we wil let u go without any operation at the 1st time u been diagnosed..
wat for we stress n worried at the outside of OT room??
wat for i cried n cried everytime i heard the bad news ???

please dun give up..
we still supporting u,dear mom..=)


-talked wit sis-
coughed nonstop..
went to toilet n vomit..@.@
2nd time in tis week, cough until vomit everything out..@.@
1stime was at DKB..coughed nonstop n went to toilet n vomit..@.@
oh no i think im getting serious..
oways cough nonstop since tuesday...
it has been longtime ago..
longtime ago ever coughed until vomit..@.@
now lik tat again..@.@





TODAY
ah H asked "demam?"
i said yes..
by the way actually no demam lah..
actually din realized bout tis..
after clas, ah Y asked me same question oso..
i gv same answer oso..
then ah T n ah Y gv me SKIN CONTACT..xDD
to feel my body temperature mah..=p
they said "whr gt demam lah."
oh no~~~
i just realized i NO DEMAM...>.<.
aduiii..
before tat i said demam to ah H pulak..malu i..(=///=)

ah H asked y dunwan eat medicine..
ok seriously i duno how to ans lah..@.@
i scared wit the bitter medicine??malu lah..>.<.


i jx realized im very super duper STUBBORN..@.@
tatday ah T asked me eat medicine oso,,
but i keep on refusing..@.@
after she paksa paksa,then just i eat..@.@
pity tis roomate..=p
but after i eat once,no 2nd time..=p
cox it cant cure mah...so better nt nid eat la..xDD
everytime like tis,must paksa paksa then jx wil eat..@.@
n realized cant stand wit "paksa paksa"..@.@
in front of the ppl who paksa paksa,im oways the loser..haizz..
anybody please tell me how to SAY NO to those who forcing me??=p


another clas at 2pm..
other groups presenting..
so i go out RELAX awhile~~=p
saw 3GUYS EATING AT THE OUTSIDE OF DK..
ohno~~~
bo jio ~~~
they looked lik v enjoy their party u noe...xDDD
somehow quite cute lah when i 1st saw tis scene,,,xDD
seriously..
cox i never expect they wil EATING AT THE OUTSIDE OF DK..xDD
in my impression  3 of them are good boy good student..
so when i saw them eating ther,wah~~!!xDD
sorry lah reli out of expectation lah..=p



okay still coughing..>.<.
i think nextweek hav to go n buy some medicine..
NEXT WEEK...xDD

Frustrated

Realized tat my ticket for chinese new year was crashed wit my practicum
On wednesday
But then my holiday only starts after thursday
N checked for ticket on friday
Cost rm510 from kl to sibu

I dunwan to buy a new ticket
Its expensive
But its still the best way to solve my problem
Heard tat lastime 1 of my senior oso asked for replacement during cny but then rejected by lecturer

Wat shud i do
Or
Wat can i do

Dun feel like wanna stay at kelantan to celerate chinese new year
I wanna celebrate wit family members uncle auntie cousins
Mayb tis time wil b my lastime to celebrate cny at home since nexyear wil start working at penang
Heard tat hard to get holiday after start working

Made me frustrated for whole night


I nid his advice badly:(
The 1 who always gv me advice when i cant make decision
How much i wish u were here.:(


But then i stil duno how to start it:(

jogging

okay planned jogging on tuesday..
but then rain heavily..
wednesday lor..
same~~@.@
thursday cant,cox went to church..
today~~
hmmm...
hopefully dun rain lah..left 5weeks oni..>.<.

later going to pizza hut wit satay n TR~~~XDD
okay tis evening must exercise liao..=p

Friend

Ok seriously quite sad lah
Lost a fren.. Ermm considered bestfren oso..
Cox reli quite good wat before tis..
Oways kepo kepo when met up..
Or at least gt halo when met each other lah..
But, cox of certain reason n made us lik stranger..@.@
Hmm..
N now everything changed..

Advice from her:just act like before tis lor if meet up..jx talk lah nt nid care wat others talking about..

Okay i tried lor today..
But failed to do so.. *grrrr*
duno lah..
Automatically wil turn away when gt eye contact..@.@
Okay its called involuntary control..;p

Seriously, im sorry..@.@

N i scare if i  say halo n then being ignored..
Oh no~~!!
awkward moment.@.@

She said " both of u looked lik exbf n exgf met up-awkward moment"
Aduiii..ex pulak..@.@


Duno lah.. Jx dislik..
Dunwan los any fren lik before tis..
In secodary sch..@.@
Few of us very clos but then they left 1 by 1..:(

But then i stil cant find out any better way to continue our frenship..@.@
1week oledi..@.@
Cant imagine i din talk wit 1 of my best fren for 1 week..@.@
Cant imagine wongahbi tis kind of kepoji can NO TALK wit her bestfren for such longtime altho wil meet each other everyday...:|
my peraktrip-mate,fbgame-mate, chess-mate, psychiaward-mate, kite-mate..
the 1st person who taught me how to play kite..
Oh no..
Dun feel lik wanna lose tis best fren..>.<

Anybody please tell me what shud i do to get bek my frenship..@.@

不是你的错

再痛的痛苦泪水
换不回一点点感动
我不怪你
不是你的错
再深的深情容忍
也不能让你再爱我
我不怪你
不是你的错

from ah T

nice video~~
likeitlikeit~~
quite touching at 1st,but then its too funny so cant stop laughing in room..xDD
<3<3<3

aiya~~=p

aiya 这张纸的形状真是令人遐想啊~~~xDDDD

steambot & eno @.@

连续当了2天像那种送老公出门的太太。。=p
因为就睡客厅啊。。
没去睡楼上房间是因为真的真的有点热热的。。>.<.
就干脆睡楼下跟那2只每天熬夜的家伙睡咯。。
老实说楼下也是热热的，因为没有开窗口，可是开了窗口又很多蚊子。。
好难呀~~

所以这2天我睡觉都有把头发绑起来。。=p
睡觉也绑头发感觉有点傻傻的。。@.@
就早上6点半那样那2只家伙就起床收拾咯，我就起来“监督”他们收拾。。=p
没有啦就自动醒来。。@.@

然后等车到时就帮他们锁门下咯。。
真的有像那种送老公去上班的女人勒~~xDD
就差没说“早点回来”。。xDDD



-6.30pm-
就借大SY的车出去吃晚餐咯。。
到那个什么粥火锅，结果没开。。=(
没有缘分啊~~~~>.<.
阿P2就讲去KSL那边那间seoul garden吃咯，顺便可以去看我要买什么电话壳。。
哎呀还有想到我要买电话壳~
感动感动~~<3<3

还蛮贵的。。@.@
可是因为我蛮喜欢吃羊肉的Sotong的，就拿了非常多。。
就变到没那么贵了。。=p
嗨呀那老板也只是糊口饭吃嘛。。=p


就7点那样吃到8.30pm..@.@
好吧到车上时就有觉得胃很不舒服。。@.@
像之前在学校跟老二阿V他们一群人一起吃火锅后的感觉。。@.@
几次了都是有拉肚子。。@.@
明明知道吃了会拉，可是还是喜欢吃。。@.@
真是自讨苦吃。。@.@


到家半小时后就找阿妹出去买eno..@.@
真是非常ji dok xia..=p
花了几十块吃晚餐，吃好还要再花rm2.20来买eno消化。。@.@
要回之前就想说去拿会电脑咯。。
因为JK讲不用format,ok de..
奇怪。。
之前都不能。。@.@
所以老二那时才讲要换去32bit..@.@
不明白。。
不只是路痴，还是电脑白痴。。>.<.


死党们叫我肥痴好像不是随便叫叫的勒。。@.@
真的很痴下。。>.<.



快12点时就看到HL大姐回来了。。
哎呀昨天一整天都没看到她。。
HL大姐真的很忙下。。
不只她，几乎这整间屋子的人都很忙。。
除了我咯~~=p
HL大姐真的越看越美勒~~~

她一进门看到我就叫妹妹~~
然后就上楼咯。。

我就小小声唱“妹妹背着洋娃娃~~”xDD
然后就出现了Status-"妹妹背着洋娃娃~走到新山来看姐~"xDDD

妹妹这个称呼啊~~
越听越好听~~<3

WHITE GUY GOT GANGNAM STYLE (강남스타일)

hahahahaha..
last few days watched "oppa gangnam style" with ahmek．．
seriously,very funny lah..xDD
gt "orang sabah style" oso..xDDDD
so pro ar them...xDDDD

tuesday

下午放学时间时阿妹打来讲不能早回，因为没有车。。

我就讲不然我驾电单车去载他们咯。。=p

因为之前阿妹有讲过JY有电单车=p

那家伙，竟然讲不相信我的技术。。=(

hurt diok ngui lou..=p

其实讲真的如果真的叫我出去载的话我也不一定能载到人勒。。

因为我根本就不认得路嘛~~~(=///=)

晚上就跟大家去skudai parade那边咯~~

他们去church,我就打算去走走咯。。

反正都还没走过。。

一个人冷静冷静=)

因为下午3点多时有吃饭了，所以就想说去走走咯不用吃咯。。

阿妹那家伙就很担心我饿晕掉吧。。

就一直罗哩罗嗦的叫我去吃。。=p

又讲很可怜我一个人逛逛什么的。。@.@

一个人逛逛又没什么好可怜的。。

有时一个人逛逛还不错啊~~

至少如果看到喜欢的店就可以看很久。。

就不用担心说旁边的那个人会不会喜欢这间店。。

就不用担心旁边的人会不会看到很闷什么的。。

就少了一个烦恼了。。=p

阿A也很担心我这样，也是很可怜我一个人走走。。=(

不要总是可怜我莫。。

我真的不可怜啦。。xD

还蛮享受一个人逛逛的。。xD

8点这样就“送”阿妹到church前面咯。。

我就先坐外面几分钟，回阿M那酸梅的讯息。。=p

才知道原来古晋也有“收~旧报纸~~old~newspaper~~suratkhabar~lama~~"

哎呀~~还3个语言勒。。xDDD

那天在房间赖床时就有听到外面"收~~旧报纸~~收~~旧铁~~suratkhabar lama~~besi~lama~~"

还有节奏的这样。。xDD

之前在阿兰丹都没听过嘛。。xDD

所以就觉得蛮搞笑的。。=p

“收~~旧报纸~~~”xDDD

就去IT plaza走走咯~~

要看laptop skin..=p

就有看到mario的。。

可是大张的只有蘑菇的。。

小张的反而有整只mario站那边。。>.<.

就走到另一摊看，那男店员就走来问要找什么。。

大哥你可以让我自己看吗，很不喜欢啦

当然只是放心里面讲啦，还没那么欠打的去别人的地盘找碴勒。。xDD

就问有mario的吗。。

他就翻翻看咯。。。

还问“mario的fans 啊？”

尴尬~~>.<.

这么大个人竟然喜欢mario..(=///=)

臭店员，找就找啦还问这样多。。=p

后来就打算说不然再去其他店看下，可能有勒。。

就走出来咯，附近有一间什么“格子”的店。。

在外面看时有看到蛮ok的钱包，就进去咯。。

有个蓝色的还蛮不错勒。。

可是那美美的店员就一直看着我。。@.@

虽然我知道这是你的职责所在，可是还是很不喜欢咯。。=p

好像担心我会偷东西这样。。=p

就不看钱包了，看到有粘button d sticker..

就找了一张没卡通没字的，就只是好像随便乱画的。。=p

此刻的心情就像那随便乱画的Sticker一样。。=p

再出来走走咯。。绕了那楼一圈。。

阿A打来问在哪里，要不要去其他地方走走。。

就拒绝咯。。

很麻烦她啦还要出来载我去其他地方。。

结果她讲她已经换好衣服在车上了。。@.@

就ok lor..

那时都快9点了。。

天啊~~~

走了一个小时才走这样2个小小的店。。

还剩蛮多店都还没走。。

而且！！

重点是！！

我还没买laptop skin..=(

果然是应了那句什么过了这一村就没下一站了。。=p

刚才直接把那张3个大蘑菇的直接买回来不就好了。。

现在好了咯。。没有买到咯。。@.@

差点就找不到大门在哪里了。。@.@

我想这应该就是一个人逛街的坏处吧，会迷路。。=p

虽然那边没有很大，可是还是有一些会迷路的人。。够力@.@

跟阿A去jusco咯。。

-在路上-

她突然就说没关系你可以坐好好靠在椅子的，不用紧张，你紧张等下我也很紧张。。

尴尬~~

我有表现的那么明显吗？？=p

-jusco-

就打算说买面粉回去做蛋糕咯。。

然后因为家里没有烘蛋糕的家伙，就也没买咯。。@.@

还打算说反正在家闲着也是闲着，就找些东西做咯。。=p

大SY讲她星期四有做cheesecake,阿A就问她我可以去学吗。。=p

感恩啊她讲哦给~~xDD

阿A后来打算就带我到taman U那边咯..

在路上她一直问我有喜欢吃什么吗，还是有想吃什么吗。。

尴尬~~

我自己都不知道到底有喜欢吃什么。。

因为就都蛮喜欢吃的。。只要是食物。。=p

-下大雨-

就2个人撑一把伞咯。。

阿A把手放在我肩膀。。

奇怪哦。。

之前在学校时阿T也是常常会把手放在我肩膀一起走。。

有时拍照时老二也是会把手放在我肩膀。。

aiya怎么大家都喜欢我的肩膀啊~~~xDDD

*极度自恋中*xDDD

不过讲真的感觉还不错咯。。

好像很被保护照顾这样。。

就有点像那种“她是我罩着的”。。xDD

阿妹讲她电脑也要reformat,我就问干嘛不要叫杰瑞帮忙弄一下。。

结果她讲‘他很忙，有你一个麻烦就够了。。’

可是阿妹之前明明就讲他有空能帮忙弄，才向他帮忙的。。

臭阿妹，就是要害我内疚就是了。。=(

好像我来的很不是时候勒。。

阿妹忙着教书和功课。。

本来应该在她假期时来才比较多东西玩。。@.@

讲真的好象我还真的挺麻烦的*.*

Monday0309

okay 大家都开始开工上课了。。
所以家里只剩3个人咯。。
床铺就换来换去睡。。
因为真的很热一下。。=p

9++ 阿妹就打电话来“闲聊”。。
还担心我饿肚子。。叫我可以煮面吃或吃面包。。@.@
10++ 老爸从文莱打电话回来也是闲聊。。
aduii...这年头大家怎么都喜欢在我睡觉时跟我闲聊啦。。=p
也是问吃什么。。@.@
我看起来真的有这么让人不放心吗？？>.<.

下午阿妹和P2回来了~~
就借车咯~~
大家都没空。。>.<.
JY2.30pm要去UTM所以也不能向他借。。@.@
我就讲不然我们送JY去，然后把他车驾走。。=p
*是有点坏下啦*xDD
阿妹就再问他咯，他就讲ok~~xDD
哎呀有时我的大脑袋还蛮有用的嘛~~
*自恋中*xDD


后来就杰瑞来咯。。
去好utm我们就去吃午餐好回来。。
utm真的是很大勒~~~=0
转来转去~~
sorry lah我是路痴，认不到路。。=p
去阿兰丹2年了还是认不到什么路，只认到去airport的。。
从airport回学校的就不会了。。@.@
伤脑筋。。@.@


ok回到重点。。=p
5点多这样，JY打给阿妹。。
电话在我旁边，那家伙就叫我接。。@.@
我就接咯。。
“哈咯子琼啊？”
“啊是啊。。” *还回答的很顺这样，考虑都不用考虑，欠打*xDD
用福州话。。
不错不错~~
回到阿兰丹就没人跟我讲福州话了。。@.@


5.45pm 就去载JY咯。。
然后去utm咯。。
去maktab咯。。
爱睡~~@.@
可是又不能睡着。。
因为！！
睡相太差了！！
没办法，之前有太多不好的经验所以就没什么敢睡。。=p
之前跟老二阿X阿J去云顶，晚上驾车去。。
阿J讲我在车上睡觉很粗鲁，睡觉占他便宜把头靠到他肩膀。。=.=
然后又试过在巴士上睡觉，头一直敲到那个玻璃。。@.@
真的有这么差meh??!!!@.@
所以为了避免不必要的麻烦就干脆不睡啦~~
而且吊在车窗的那间小衣服还蛮可爱的，不舍得去敲到它。。xD
好吧以后也要买这种小东西挂在我的Myvi。。=p
没办法以我的技术驾那种没有长屁股的车是最安全的。。
(=///=)
我安全，别人也安全~~=p
还没毕业就开始想买车了，真是有够伟大的梦想。。=p


到maktab我就走来走去咯~~
他们开会嘛，总不可能我也很38得去旁听吧。。=p
而且没走过，一个人走走也不错~~
本来阿妹讲去阿W房间的。。
就不要咯。。
不懂啦，就好像很麻烦这样。。
臭家伙就讲我是拖油瓶。。
没礼貌！！>.<.

他们开他们的会，我就绕了maktab一圈。。@.@
累勒~~=p
走到一半时阿妹叫我去阿W房间，还讲我穿黑色的等下其他人以为我是鬼。。@.@
这女人。。。。。
是没看过鬼戏还怎样？？
鬼通常都是穿白色的好吗。。=p

快7.30pm时就走好一圈。。
那操场是最美得了~~=p

就回去他们开会的地方咯。。
通知阿妹下我坐隔壁课室。。=p
才不要坐他们一间勒，尴尬。。
而且好像很安静这样。。@.@
就去隔壁班咯。。
够暗的！！！
窗口又没关。。@.@
就想起了之前在文莱看的一部鬼戏，是关于课室有鬼的。。@.@
有像到。。@.@
尤其是后面那橱子，没关紧的。。@.@
伤脑筋，都是看太多戏害的。。=p

好咯就打开灯咯。。
坐在老师位子看书听歌唱歌咯。。
夜半歌声~~
恐怖~~=p


不懂几点时阿妹朋友走来交待事情下就出去了。。
一下子后又进来。。
进来问我要不要跟她回房间。。
才不要勒。。
都不认识，又尴尬。。
跟陌生人走是很危险的事。。
我还有这点危机意识~~
虽然这个危机意识在这个时候根本就是不需要的~~=p
嗨呀就是觉得很麻烦她啦如果去她房间。。


不久后阿妹就来叫我回家啦~~
收拾收拾就出去咯。。
外面有够暗的。。@.@
是怎样啦都这么暗。。@.@

好像有人叫我。。
原来是杰瑞应该是叫我。。=p
没注意到他讲什么，就“哈”咯。。=p
他就重复一次。。
讲真的还是没听到他讲什么。。(=///=)
尴尬到~~>.<.
就没注意到，然后距离又好像有点远，然后他讲话又蛮斯文。。
所以咯。。
没听到他讲什么是很正常的。。=p
*还蛮会掰下的我*xD
sorry lah下次会注意一点了。。=p

-打包burger king回家吃-

玩电脑到1点多。。
阿妹那家伙一直催我去睡觉。。@.@
还威胁我讲再不去睡的话就叫杰瑞星期五才把电脑给我。。>.<.
哪里有这样的人啦。。>.<.
臭穷纸~~=p

@.@

another 很没志气的一天。。@.@

早上帮阿妹他们锁好门后就去楼上睡觉。。
不知道做莫突然链好像勾到什么然后拉到。。
那一刻
有紧张到
担心断掉
可是
又有觉得干脆断掉更好就不用戴了

没有断
还好好的圈在脖子上
就像某些回忆一样
还是圈着我不放

睡觉时还梦见了它主人
-无言-



有没有人能来帮忙打醒这个总是记得一些烂回忆的笨家伙
T.T

shopping-sutera mall

<01092012>
okay HL大姐早上带我们去吃早餐咯~~
猪肠粉~~
我又是穿mario衣服。。(=///=)
HL大姐就说“妹妹你真的很喜欢mario ho?”
*尴尬~~*(=///=)
因为前一天我也是穿mario衣服。。=p
先声明！我不是没有洗哦~~
是~~~~~我有3件mario衣服。。=p
好像很变态这样~~=p
可是那时在汶莱看到就觉得很喜欢啊~~
专家说：要买东西的话就要买第一眼看上就喜欢的东西。。
errr,所谓的专家就是在下我啦~~=D

中午就去sutera mall咯~~
阿妹还担心我不知道是什么地方，就讲就是那天杰瑞讲的王子的地方。。
*汗* =p

sutera mall不错咯~
买了新手表~~（终于有手表了，之前在文莱每次大家问几点了，姑姑就一直弄我叫我快点去买手表（=／／／=） ）
AhP2很厉害勒~~ 跟那店员杀价杀到就扣了rm30~
不然我还要多还rm30..
真是太帅了啦她~~

还买了几本书~
3 本恐怖书，一本九把刀的书。。
相当变态的说。。
看恐怖片就算了，还要买书的。。@@

吃黑丸咯~~ 不错~

可惜没买到IP 电话壳。。
有看到mario的，可是不是那种掉下去不会伤到的那种厚厚的。。:(
也忘了买laptop skin, 想到那天才买到第三天就花了。。
还是IP charger割花的。。
真是割在电脑，痛在我心啊~~~~:(
有找了钱包，都不知道自己到底喜欢哪一种，所以就没买。。@@
旧的已经活不久了。。。。
从在文莱开始就是用之前树老大送的那个，奇怪。。

晚上11+时，阿妹就讲带我跟P2去McD咯。。
因为在家她们很想睡觉，需要赶功课。。
她们忙着功课，我就看我的中国好声音咯。。
幸好那时阿X在文莱有看这个，然后我也吃饱没事用IP去download..@.@
蛮38的。。=p
如果那时没download的话还真不知道要怎么很精神的在McD混了。。
因为那个还蛮不错,也很搞笑咯。。=p
就其实啊，这几天晚上都睡的不怎么好。。
因为有点闷热下。。=p
可能是因为之前在文莱都是整天都是有冷气的，所以才会不习惯吧。。
宿舍肯定更更更热~~
天啊~~
不能想象我离开了5个月后的宿舍有多热。。。>.<.
就这样，我戴着耳机对着电话笑，有点白痴下。。@.@
有不小心看到P2跟阿妹看着我讲什么，把耳机拿掉下就不说了。。
喂。。。。。
吊我胃口。。。
明明就是讲我，却不让我知道讲我什么。。@.@
那种感觉。。。。。。有点想把她抓来吃进肚子。。=X


<02092012>
去了教会~~
我有乖哦，有戴眼镜去~xD
这个教会蛮大的。。
人也很多。。
会比阿兰丹的大和多人。。:p

我就像在上演阿牛进城记这样。。=p
因为什么都不懂，又只认识几个人沃。。
阿妹就把我交给了阿A，然后阿A就带我找我需要的人。。=p
然后阿A又把我交给了XY，跟她2个人坐那边“聊天”。。
尴尬~~
聊了1小时那样吧~~
然后就要开始敬拜赞美了。。

这边很不错勒~~
“好摇滚~~”
唱诗歌唱到一半时跟SY偷偷的讲了这句话。。=p
她就说，不算摇滚，摇滚是有摇头的。。
然后2个就在那边笑。。xDD
这2个家伙真是。。。。。。。=p
连唱诗歌时都能聊天讲话。。=p


讲真的，牧师在讲话时我很多时间都是在放空。。>.<.
不懂啦。。已经很努力在focus 了啦。。=(
像每次上课一样，都会自动放空。。>.<.
甚至有时跟人聊天久了也会放空那么几秒。。@.@
幸好SY时不时都会转过来关心我叫我下，不然的话我看可能就像上课一样，只focus几分钟，后面放空几十分钟。。@.@
感恩啊~~<3

后来有一起吃午餐，我没有带饭盒。。
幸好JK有问我下，然后就叫WH给我一个饭盒。。
我就走近要拿咯。。
就听到HL大姐叫WH留一个给妹妹~~
太感动了~~
后来WH就拿去洗一下拿出来给我，还问我要哪个颜色的。。
真的有很感动啦。。
虽然看起来只是小小的事情，可是还是蛮感动的。。=D
之前就有同学讲我很容易就会被收买，只要买一点食物给我就能收买我了。。@.@
我真的有这么容易被收买meh??@.@
*虽然食物真的很容易诱惑我啦，可是还不至于能被收买吧。。*
可恶的同学，看你以后用食物能不能收买我！cheh~!

ok lah言归正传~~
大家真是太好了~~~
还是因为我是妹妹所以对我很好？？
那麻烦大家就继续叫妹妹吧~~xD


吃好就有分享咯~~
SY先说~~
然后到HL大姐~~
结果！！！
JK就讲叫我分享，第一次来的分享。。>.<.
ngaidiiiiiii~~~~~
而且JK那笑笑的表情让我很哭笑不得。。。怎么感觉好像是故意的这样。。>.<.
好啦其实不是故意的啦，只是那时真的很担心啦。。
毕竟多半时间我都在放空。。>.<.
感恩啊杰瑞那时有东西要分享，再加上HL大姐讲给妹妹多点时间想~~
再次感动~~<3
就杰瑞先分享~~=p
后来就慢慢轮过来到我。。
多了很多时间想。。=p
终于有想到一些些有那么一点点关系到的东西分享。。>.<.

还有还有！！
在这分享的过程当中，有几个人走到杰瑞那边不懂讲什么，然后杰瑞就有指指我，又跟他朋友讲话。。
有好几次了。。@.@
又一个家伙吊我胃口的。。
那感觉跟在McD时一样，真想把他抓过来吃进肚子。。
后来就好像有听到HL大姐讲等下他载我还有谁谁谁回esther house..
cheh...=p 就没管了咯。。最重要是能回就好。。=p



sorry lah这次又是把几天的post放在同一篇。。
因为刚才打到一半阿A就突然讲她送蛋糕去daniel house..
阿妹就问我电脑要不要现在就拿过去。。
就想了几秒觉得现在拿过去会比较好，因为如果明天早上拿给他的话好像比较麻烦。。
因为他载好阿妹他们是直接去做工，所以就想说如果直接去做工的话，还要带埋我的beg,蛮麻烦的。。
今晚拿过去至少就可以放在家咯。。
想不到我的头脑今天转的蛮快的。。xDD
*自恋中*xDD


今天的故事就明天再打咯。。
累~~~@.@

小组&国庆日

到johor第二天晚上有小组。。
尴尬勒。。@.@
*好像最近很喜欢讲“尴尬”..@.@*

一进daniel house的门，我就不懂要做莫了。。
就很尴尬的看来看去。。
真的比esther house空很多。。=p
后来就SY叫我坐她旁边，也是叫我“妹妹”。。
都是被HL大姐传染了。。=p
不过好像还蛮好听下，妹妹..xDD

大家围在桌子一起吃domino pizza..
然后大家就自我介绍咯~~
名字啊~~
哪里人啊~~
跟阿妹是什么关系啊~~
有几个是之前新年时有一起去拜年的所以都知道名字咯。。
最好笑的是杰瑞自我介绍，然后讲“就。。。朋友咯。。”
SY就讲干嘛讲到好像很暧昧这样。。xDDDDDD
哈哈哈哈哈是咯是咯讲到好像是我姐夫这样。。。xDDDDDDDD
horrrrr~~!!!!
阿妹meh lo lik o!!
什么都没告诉我！！
害我只知道一点关于之前那个4S的，现任的竟然没告诉我。。>.<.


吃到就收拾下唱诗咯。。
老实说，那些字。。。。。。。。。有点小。。=(
我又没戴眼睛。。@.@
阿妹就很帅气的把我拉到站前面一点，会看到啦只是看的有点辛苦=p
唱第一首SY就讲握起旁边的手。。@.@
左边是JK，右边是阿妹。。
就很尴尬的看着JK。。@.@
真的很尴尬啦。。
除了男朋友，老二，阿J之外还没牵过其他男生的手啦。。
老二那变态有时没事做就会kacau kacau，牵牵手来表示我们兄妹情深啊~~~xDD
阿J那次就是在uncle david 家 咯，也是唱诗。。
可是至少跟阿J那猴子已经是熟到烂了，还没那么尴尬。。
这次就。。。。。。@.@


后来发现原来杰瑞站在我和JK中间又后面，就变成我是跟杰瑞牵手。。
更尴尬啦。。@.@
应该是“握”手，因为杰瑞不像老二和阿J那样变态的给我来个十指紧扣。。=p
虽然只是因为唱诗才握的，可是还是很奇怪啦。。@.@
尤其是握才认识不到一天的男生。。@.@
不过讲真的杰瑞的手还蛮大蛮好握的勒，比老二和阿J的手大。。=p
*等下！怎么感觉有点变态的感觉这样*=p


*唱诗中*
SY大姐唱歌很好听哦~~
蛮喜欢这个小组的..
大家都很好~~<3
感觉有点亏本勒没在这边读书。。
跟大家一起蛮不错的~~
不过还是感恩啦至少还有来这边一星期~~<3

johor trip-roti canai

ok would lik to say something LOL happened during my way to johor..=p
actually my seat was at 19D,but then 1makcik ask me to sit at 19F-her seat lor..
okay lor since im so good..=p
she asked " johor?"
*=.= sweatttt im same flight wit u ar makcik..nt johor lah africa lah*
but of cox x ans lik tat lah, "yes"
then her baby started crying..
she pulled up her shirt n gv breastfeeding ther...
gosh~~~
okay tat was my 1st time...=p
never c ppl gv breastfeeding bah..=p
ok better focus on my movie..=p

alrite next~~~
there was an ALIEN at 20E,u noe,tis alien seriously i bet he eat dao very very very very FULLED!!
cox he keep on burping over ther!!!!=.=!!!
wat the.................................................



*landed*
dinner wit my dear kakak n ahP2 lor..
i ordered 1 wat 日式的。。cox looked delicious mah..=p
well~~!!!
seriously jx a ROTI CANAI!!
超市里冷冻的roti canai,中间加上一些鸡肉块和洋葱，把roti对折，就变成了所谓的"日式XX”
@.@
好吧都叫了就试试看咯。。=p


*in the middle of the night*
actualy jx around 12 nia,middle of the night oso lah..=p
HL大姐下来问阿妹要不要出去吃大便。。顺便可以带妹妹去试试看。。
阿妹讲好啊~~
HL大姐：“那我叫jelly载我们去”
这是怎么一回事呀~~我们竟然沦落到要半夜去吃大便。。。
还是“菜燕”载我们去。。
这年头大家怎么讲话都好深啊~~=p

不久那菜燕就来了，我们就四只东西去吃咯。。
原来是去吃roti canai lah...
事情是这么一回事。。
话说~~~~
做roti canai的家伙戴着戒指。。
用手洗了屁股的大便，洗好就出来做roti canai。。
那大便有卡在戒指，所以做出来的东西就是大便roti canai lah~~
还有那菜燕，是人类。。
其实是叫jerry,结果大家叫着叫着，就变成了jelly。。
可怜的孩子~~莫名其妙就变成了aaron最喜欢的tom&jerry了。。=p
HL大姐跟菜燕，等一下，叫菜燕好像有点很菜鸟的样子，就叫杰瑞好了。。
HL大姐？？HL milk..=p
sorry lah 很多小名。。xD
就这样，HL大姐跟杰瑞坐我们对面咯。。
HL大姐真的是很美下了勒~~
大眼睛~~
那杰瑞就不一样了~~
小眼睛~~
不过有些东西是一样的，那就是：他们都很friendly,很健谈，很会开玩笑~~<3
不错不错~~
初来乍到就遇到2位好人~~
*我绝对没有讲我们家阿妹不是好人的意思哦xDDD*


好啦~~
到JB的第一个晚上，老娘我就吃了2次roti canai..@.@
是roti canai 的粉丝还怎样啊？？？！！！

its time to leave

30082012
好吧在这一天我就离开了汶莱。。

长达5个月的假期终于也快结束了。。@.@

好吧我很没志气的没跟老爸老妈还有小aaron讲拜拜。。=(

在关卡检查beg时，听到aaron在外面一直喊ahbi ahbi

我忙着拿beg所以还没回头看他

结果他就大喊ahbi gugu ahbi gugu

好想哭啦=(

因为之前他总是叫ahbi而已，我常常就作弄他讲如果没加姑姑的话就不理他了

讨厌啦

就是要弄到我哭就是了=(

我就快快拿好beg就再走远几步才回头看他

他很拼命的招手

T.T

我也招手咯。。=(

眼泪在打滚了啦T.T

被别人遮到他还找位置能看到我的

T.T

招了蛮久的，我就赶紧走进去了T.T

之前第一次去都没这么伤感，这次却这么爱哭了T.T

低着头坐着

努力不让眼泪流下来

免得被周围的人取笑

好想那个爱罗哩罗嗦的小瓜啦T.T

之前就有朋友说不想回学校

以为我很想回meh

可是出去读书总好过像个缩头乌龟这样躲在家当米虫吧？？

而且反正不管怎样都得去了，就觉得没必要那么早就在那边伤心难过弄累自己而已。。

干脆就在当天难过就好。。=)

还是那句话，真的好想Aaron那38的样子。。=p